Day-iN-Day-Out

tudung

2012-01-02T21:35:00.000-08:00

I have been looking for a collection of 'tudung' that is comfortable to wear, appealing to my eyes and reasonable in price. You know, these days 'tudung' can be ridiculously expansive. My last set of hijabs have been worn for almost 2 years. Yes, durable is also one of the criterias.

I'm glad that I finally found the shop. The only drawback about it is, I have to go through the hassle to go there. Parking is always a problem there.

We women love to look our best on all occasions, be it at a b'day party or a wedding. I'd like to think I dress up to impress my other half. Anyway, I thought I'd share the hijab look for those who care. Drop me an email at sitinizar@gmail.com if you want to know the place. The shop is selling it for RM40. Equally, if you are busy and currently live in KL, I don't mind buying it for you and dropping them at your doorstep!

Heavy chiffon two layers with thai silk awning

Comes in many different colour. Till then, take care!

The highlight of 2011

2012-01-02T03:52:00.000-08:00

I have no resolutions for new year. I decided to just embrace whatever comes my way. That's not to say I don't have goals in my life. I prefer to plod along and grab as much opportunities along the way.

New year always offers a good platform to reflect on the year before. What have I achieved? What could have done differently? more importantly, was I in agreement with year 2011?

Looking back, I can say that it has been a topsy-turvy ride nationally and globally- economic turmoil, political upheaval following 'Bersih'. There are a few good things on paper that come out of it though - shift system for junior doctors, SBPA ie salary hike and hopefully it will offer a healthy competition between public servants. The ideas sound fresh for the forthcoming years, lets hope the plans will get implemented properly.

On a personal level, I struggled with exams but alhamdullilah, with God's Mercy, I managed to bounce back. I know I have to be more focus and keep my head down for the next exam, iA. I have to remind myself that my primary motivator is altruism but the truth is, it isn't as simple as it sounds.

Financially, it was challenging at some point. There are an investment that remains fruitless and some that bear fruits. My other half's career seems to be thriving, alhamdullilah. I guess rezki Allah bukan di UK sahaja, ada di mana-mana. All praises to the Almighty.

By far the best thing that happen to me this year was the day when I decided to come back for good. I spent most of the afternoon with my old man sipping 'teh tarik' at various places, Pappa Rich, Old Town White Coffee, mamak stalls u name it. I spent most of my evenings with my mum watching 'Indon' TV programmes that I sometimes find it difficult to comprehend the story line. These moments are just PRICELESS.

Dear Allah,

As 2012 begins, I put my life into Your Hands and I promise to love and serve you unconditionally. I firmly believe that all the trials and tribulations you have sent over the last year is to prepare me to be a better servant. I am hopeful that 2012 will bring more success, more health and more happiness insyaAllah.

Hadith - Tirmidhi, Narrated Umar ibn al-Khattab

Allah's Messenger taught him to say, "O Allah, make my inner nature better than my outer, and make my outer nature good. O Allah, I ask Thee to give me some of the abundance thou givest to men, in family, property and children, which neither strays nor leads astray.

source from Google

Ameen. May Allah protect us all. Till then xxx

Cuti-cuti Malaysia

2011-12-22T00:33:00.000-08:00

It was a bit upset this morning, duh!! I failed the bloody exam! Anyway, guess what I did straight after the breakdown? I went for a swim and alhamdullilah, it helped clear my mind.

Holiday Inn, Malacca

Its no longer a secret that I've just mastered basic swimming skill. Yes, I wasn't one of those fortunate kids who get to go to swimming lesson. My parents' priorities were to send their children to university and sending us to swimming or music school weren't in the agendas.

Yet, (allow me to brag a bit, cough) I have managed to acquire the skill in 2 months. *Pat on my back*

Well, it started a year ago when I told my other half one of the marriage terms is that he has to teach me swim. 'Piece of cake' he smugly replied. He was the school representative in swimming back in MRSM Muar.

I think I'm indebted to him as well as his company for the free hotel stay and the swimming pool for me to jump in.:)

We are currently staying at Holiday Inn, Malacca. The hotel is relatively new - albeit small. The room appears quite basic - decent room size, no 40' LCD TV.

Location wise, its quite strategic - located opposite Mahkota Parade. We managed to watch Mission Impossible 3 on our first night there.

The next day, we went to Muara Sungai Duyong to fill our appetite with seafood. It is 7 kilometeres away from the hotel and apparently the prices are slightly cheaper than the commercialized 'Umbai'.

The following day, we received a dinner invitation from one of his office mates. We were served with home made food, God, the food was divine not to mention, traditional classic home.

Thanks honey, I had real fun despite the bitter news. I will try to hold my head high, insyaAllah xxx

Here's to fresh starts and new beginnings

2011-12-21T17:38:00.000-08:00

At the risk of sounding pathetic and weak, I have to confess that I have tears in my eyes while writing this entry. The result is out. I bet it wouldn't take long for you to figure out what the outcome was.

I knew the papers were hard, harder than it was last time. But I was hoping for the glimmer of hope that I will pass.

I had all the time in the world to revise, yet I failed. This time I didn't stumble, I fell. HARD.

I don't know how to pick myself up again. When you fell so hard, sometimes, it is easier to just lie on the ground.

I guess we don't always get all we want in this world. I have to remind myself the reason I came back. Its ok to pursue your dream for a better life, but don't lose yourself in the dream and ignore the life in front of you. For that Allah, I am still thankful.

'Its not like I've just been diagnosed with terminal illness'.

New chapter, New year, New beginning. Bismillah....

2007 adventures

2011-12-12T20:34:00.000-08:00

That year was rather quite stressful. It started with Phase I exam which was taxing and exhausting. I was overwhelmed by countless revision session and study group. My other half had to leave England for good that year. We were contemplating whether it was best for him to do MEng. Well, after lots lots of istiqarah prayers, I finally had the courage to let him leave the country. I remember telling myself ' Its about time I stand on my own two feet'. So our holiday to Prague & Vienna was a well-deserved treat to myself and friends.

There were 5 of us in total, 4 medics and 1 engineer wannabe. Ahhh...all the good memories coming back to me now :)

We booked our tickets to Vienna straight after exam via Ryanair. It was spur on the moment thingy. My other half still had to sit for exam so we had to split into 2 groups. They went to Salzburg first. Ever watched of 'The Sound of Music'? Yes, the film was shot in Salzburg. My husband and I still haven't been there! Because of the distance, we think its probably a good idea to cover German-Neuschwanstein Castle and Salzburg one day, insyaAllah.

So we got there around 3 pm met the rest of the crew. I don't think our trip to Vienna will be complete without watching the You certainly can't miss visiting the world famous opera house (Staatsoper). We were lucky to see a performance there.

We had to queue for long hours to buy the tickets but defnitely worth every sweat! The place is beautiful and classic inside, the experience unbeatable!

After the opera performance, we managed to grab some halal kebabs before we head back to the hostel. Yes, we did it the backpackers style!

After breakfast at our cosy hostel

We visited a few places which includes Schonbrunn Palace, The Hoffburg Palace and the Ringstrasse.

They even have sthn similar similar to London eye, albeit smaller.

We then headed to Prague via train. If you ever been on a train in Europe you know that sometimes you have to fight for seats, so we booked for 5 bunk beds. Awesome!

Old Town Square

We experienced 3 kind of weather in Prague. The first day was rainy, the second was sunny and the 3rd was snowy! Thats just plain lucky, innit!

The infamous Astronomical Clock

Not to forget our coffee sessions,

I can hear the pics talking to me now,I'm becoming delusional LOL thats how much I miss my uni days.Moments like these stay close in your heart, always! Till then, take care!

Australia Adventure

2011-12-09T15:25:00.001-08:00

2009 has been awarded as the 'Most Wicked Year' by yours truly. That year, I had the opportunity to go across the continents and witness the beauty of many countries. I went to Istanbul, New Zealand, Venice, Milan, Sydney, Brisbane, Gold Coast to name a few.

We went to Australia via Air Asia. We managed to get the cheap air tickets, RM2000++ return for 2. My BIL was in Brisbane and my best friend used to study in Melbourne. They offered free-accommodation and we can't be thankful enough!

We hopped on the plane and landed in Melbourne as our first destination. I fell in love with Melbourne almost instantly. The last time I was there was in 2002 and I don't remember the city being so vibrant and lively as it is today. You get to see every tone of skin colour but that's what makes you feel at ease. Asian/continental food can be found at almost every corner. Efficient public transport and huge shopping malls just makes you want to migrate there. The weather can change quite rapidly but having lived in England for quite some time, I find it bearable.

We booked a day trip to The Great Ocean Road and the Twelve Apostles. It was breathtakingly beautiful! If I remember correctly, its approximately 2 ++hour by car from Melbourne City. There are other places that you can go if you fancy ie Philip's Island where you can see loads and loads penguin.

We were lucky, we got a bargain from Australian Luxury escapes on Tripadvisor website. it costed us approximately 300 AUS for 2. The tour guide was really helpful and yes, it was a private tour. There were only 4 of us and meals are included.

Our adventures didn't stop in Melbourne. We then flew to Sydney via cheap airflight- Jetstar I think! The highlight of Sydney trip was having fish and chips by the harbor ! Well, personally I dont think there much to do Sydney! Maybe its just me. We spent hours trying to capture the photo below, enjoy!

We them moved up to Brisbane and spent a day with kangaroos, wallabies and koala. They are so adorable!!! The place is called Lone Pine Koala Santuary.

Guess where we headed next! Gold Coast!!

It was indeed a memorable trip.We had so much fun. One day insyaAllah, Australia re-visit is definitely in the plan! Til then xxx

Facts on Mattress

2011-12-07T19:49:00.001-08:00

We have done a bit of research on matresses that could be of value to some of you. When we first start surveying, we often come across dreamlands product. The name sounds familiar and established. Little that we know its actually not recommended by many. We have booked one queen bed for the guest room, guess we just gonna have to suck it up. Reason being is because apparently dreamsland company uses cheap spring that may use its elasticity few years down the line.

A few recommmended brands - King Koil, Vono, Getha, SlumberlandSome of the prices can be really steep. Fyi theY also produced some high quality mattresess for export. If you've been to one, you'd realised that you have the following options:
1) pocket spring with foam layer on top
2) pocket spring with latex on top
3) pocket spring only
4) combination of foam, latex, pocket spring- i think its from SlumberlandI was told that latex is more expansive than foam.

Again, let me reiterate, its just a layer on top not the whole mattress made of latex. That would cost u a bomb!Personally I'd prefer latex over foam. Its so comfy but my other half prefers sthn more firm. We decided to go for foam instead due to hubby preferance and also because apparently foam will reduce pressure points on yourbody as it follows ur body shape and spring back almost immediately.

The problem with pocket spring matresses is that you have to keep turning the bed after being worn out. Well, its better that ' tilam sponge' ey :pWe bought one from King Koil for rm 2.5 k.what do u think of the price? Fact: furnitures prices will go up by 7-10% every year. Y is our salary static then?!!!!

2011-12-07T19:20:00.001-08:00

When we were at Mandarin Oriental last week, we vowed not to stay there again, at least not until the year ends. Guess they have seen us too often that they can't even bothered to return our smile.

This week is even worse. All the hotels in Shah Alam are fully booked and we had to stay at Grand Bluewave Hotel.Sorry, I don't have anything good to say about this hotel. It all went downhill from the start.The moment I stepped into the lobby, I was surprised to see the christmas deco that looked more like deepavali to me. The hotel receptionist only uttered a few words to us. Not even the usual 'enjoy ur stay here' 'thank you'. He left us in bimbo after handed in the keys that we had to re-clarify 'is that all?'

The room deco isn't appealing to my eyes but thats no biggie. What irked me was when I found hairs under the duvet. Grrrrr. A few mins after laying on the bed, my legs went itchy. I straight away jumped up and throw the duvet away. Could it be thermites? God knows !!! So that nite, I slept without a blanket I almost wanted to cry. It was freezing cold and we can't even control the temp.

I'm not a domestic person but I alwas make sure my toilet/bathroom is clean. There was a stain in the toilet bowl that didnt go away with flushing. My other half found mould inside the toilet yes its disgusting. I better stop before you girls throw up. Take my word. Stay away from tis hotel, till then.

Random hang out

2011-11-08T21:06:00.000-08:00

I am pretty sure most bloggers have heard about Rina Salleh. Well, who doesn't? Our path crossed when my brother in law decided to date her and alhamd, they are going to tie the knot soon.

I first met Rina years back when she was still a baby. She was so tiny that I was afraid I might crush her when we gave each other a hug. Having met her again recently, I don't think she has changed much except that she's way prettier.

We spent a few hours at Aseana and browsed through wedding websites for ideas. We then headed back to Mandarin Oriental for Maghrib prayers. Boys being boys, they managed to play games (playstation) in between. We watched 'Real Steel' after. The movie was great and entertaining. That was the first movie since I got home, sad, isn't?

Our next plan is for my husband to book a room at Marriot Hotel so we could hang out at Bukit Bintang. I really hope it will happen before I start working again :P

Needless to say, she is currently riding a wave of popularity. I wish her all the best. Well, luck will be just part of it. Hard work will drive and determine success but I'm sure she will do well. Till then, taaaaa....

random

2011-11-04T16:35:00.000-07:00

Husband: Honey, I've got a secret to tell you but promise me you won't tell anyone. Wife: Ok. I'll try my best sayang. What is it?Husband: I've been keeping it a secret for a long time. Silence...Wife: What???????? Spill the beans!Husband: I have a dark secret which is.... I love you so much sayang.Wife was left speechless. Just flashed a smile at him.Husband busted out laughing. A minute after he nonchalantly said 'aren't I cute?comel tak comel tak?'

Jetta

2011-10-31T23:16:00.000-07:00

It goes without saying that having a car is a must for KL-ians. With the state of our current transportation service, unless you live next to LRT, going to work place is a struggle. Even then, LRT, STAR and KTM aren't accessible to all areas. For instance, I for one, couldn't imagine myself going to any hospitals in KL/Selangor with any means of public transportation.

It is an understatement to say that the car prices in Malaysia are ridiculously expensive. Allow me to rephrase. The car itself isn't expensive, it is the taxes imposed on cars which are making them unaffordable to many.

So last week we went to VW showroom and Jetta caught our eyes. We made a booking for Tornado Red Jetta there and then. The opportunity to own a continental car will be a dream come true. I was willing to spend all my savings to buy a continental car in the UK until our gov change the rulings/policy. No more tax free cars for professionals abroad. In hindsight, I think its actually a blessing in disguise cause I may take ownership of the car but can hardly afford to pay for its maintenance.

We listed down all our expenses in Microsoft Excell sheet including baby expanses which obviously hasn't existed yet, house mortgage etc. We figured that we could opt to use account 2 KWSP to help us pay the mortgage.

After mulling it over for days, not to forget after several istiqarah prayers (I'm a Istiqarah freak :P), we decided to let go of the car. We shouldn't really live beyond our means. I'm sure Robert Kiyosaki or any financial advisor would advise me the same. Although Robert Kiyosaki mentioned in his books that you don't need money to generate money, I firmly believe money will generate money. So save up and think twice on your spending. Well, I may not be the best person, refer previous entry, spent a fortune on a sofa and a dining table, but I'm glad I came to my senses on this matter :)

Notice a bit of Audi A4 resemblances there ?:P

Academic qualifications are important and so is financial education. They're both important and schools are forgetting one of them -Robert Kiyosaki

Feeling inspired yet? Blergggghhhh...Last but not least, please don't leave zakat out of the equation :)

Bday present

2011-10-30T05:17:00.000-07:00

The only wish I had when I first came back home was to be able to move into our new apartment. I guess God has a better plan given the fact that I'm currently jobless. I'm quite pleased to know that it'll be ready early next year since we don't have to pay the mortgage nor the construction fees yet. Although we have savings, it will be less prudent to use them coz let's face it. It aint easy to save RM1000 in Msia let alone RM10,000.

On another note, I celebrated my bday with my in laws. MIL gave me a set of kain. Bless her, she is ever so nice. I didn't get to celebrate with my parents as they are currently outside Msia. So on my bday, we decided to accompany MIL to Sogo and guess what? we bought some furniture at Da Vinci for our future crib. It was unplanned and the prices are quite steep. However, we do think that it's quite a bargain considering the high quality material

They requested 70% payment upon booking. Thankfully, we opted for easy payment in the hope that I will get hired by Kementerian Kesihatan Malaysia soon. Seriously seriously. I thought we are in short of doctors. Well, I shouldn't really complain coz I quite like being jobless except for the fact that our savings are running dry.

I was so tempted to buy the mirror below for RM700 but I decided to give it a miss.

Since we've chosen the above furniture, I gather that we can't really go for modern look. Our kitchen cabinet would have to be like ........

Except that it's way smaller...til then!

Happiness

2011-10-15T03:59:00.000-07:00

I have been reading a lot about anti-oxidants recently. I somehow relate the effects of anti-oxidants with the state of being happy. Happiness to some is defined with how much money they earn. Some prefers fame but often, fame would eventually bring them to shame. To others, it is simply mean the state of being content.

Happiness is about how you interpret things in front of you. Alhamdullilah my happiness is right at my doorstep every Thursday night. No matter how imperfect or inadequate it may seem to others, I will learn to accept the imperfection and fill it with joy.

For what its worth, I think its very unhealthy to listen to people's passing comments. You may hear it but please don't store them in your brain. Our life is subjected to highs and lows. It is how we handle them and turn them into opportunities instead of calamities.

I pray to Allah that I won't become one of His slave that despite having hundred thousands of cash and a budding career , they still feel inadequate and unhappy. Nauzubillah.

If only they know my huge smile is a measurement of how happy I am at the moment. :). So today, I choose to focus on the good, both in this world and in the hereafter.

The Big Gob

2011-10-01T07:03:00.000-07:00

Let me know if the followings sound familiar to you:

1) ' bila nak makan nasi minyak'

2) ' lambatnya ada anak, kesian suami'

3) 'lamanya tinggal kan suami'

4) ' bila nak bertiga'

5) 'bila nak beranak lagi, takkan satu jek'

Verdict

The above questions seem to blend well in Malay culture. Most people tend to make assumption that the other party won't take offence. Its becoming like an insensitive habit.

If I have heard it once, chances are, I won't take offence. But after 3 statements from the same person that imply the same meaning as no 2, I completely lost it. She is really taking the biscuits!

a) please mind your own bss

b) you do know that ajal, rezki and jodoh itu ketentuan Allah, don't you?

c) If you really sympathise me, the least you could do is 'doakan' for me.

d) Don't worry I'm a doctor. I know when and where to seek help if need any. Nauzubillah. I really hope this is not the case!

I'm sorry you ladies have seen the worst of me. But I just had to get it off my chest.

Investment

2011-09-26T23:36:00.000-07:00

There are 3 types of investment according to my dictionary. Low, medium and high risk investments. Real-estate has always caught my eyes despite the new regulations that hinder one from buying more than 2 properties.

Currently, ASB seems to be the safest investment. 7-9% guaranteed returns which ain't that bad. But gold enticed me more. I have to say that gold prices are quite volatile these days but if you see the rising pattern of gold in the past year, you may be surprise. I remember just over a year ago, my other half bought gold jewellery for RM 140 per gram. Currently the market value is hovering at Rm170-180. You do the maths!

You may opt to buy gold bars or through Maybank gold Investment. Obviously, Maybank will charge you by 1% but the plus side is you don't have to keep the gold. It was reported in the news recently that safety box are all fully utilised - a sign that people are moving towards gold investment.

Online stocks are on the downward trend at the moment. Probably the best time to buy shares. I'm not an expert, but there are a couple of shares that worth buying.

Sometimes, investment that worth risking is an investment that earns most profit.

KK

2011-09-26T06:45:00.000-07:00

It goes without saying that KK has beautiful sandy beaches and picturesque mountain. Explain why its one of UNESCO heritage's sites. We went there with my other half office mates' and alhamdullilah,we were pleased with the trip. No hitches nor glitches. Just us chilling and appreciating its beauty.

I always find it handy to have a tour guide. Thanks to my brilliant idea, we agreed to spend a little extra to hire one. We found out about them through Matta Fair. They met our expectation, that is, to serve 100 % halal food. Check out Trek Finder. It costs us RM300 per pax for 3nights - entrance fees, transport and lunch included.

Their service comes with airport pick-ups. Before dropping us off at Hyatt Regency Kinabalu Hotel, the tour guide briefed us quickly on the itinerary. We we advised to dress appropriately as the temperature might be cold. Upon reading their itinerary, I decided to take semi-sports attire with me which I found really useful.

Some of the places that we've been include :

Nabalu Market

Poring Hot Spring

well as the name suggest, you may dip your feet into natural hot water but because it is a public area, some of you may be disgusted to dip your feet into a cloudy pool of water.

One of the highlight of the trip was when we trekked up to ''canopy walk'- hanging bridges built between huge trees. It was truly an experience. Man, cant remember the last time I sweat like a pig. :P

Pulau Sipadan and Pulau Sapi

In comparison to Krabi Island, you can actually do snorkelling near the shore. It was worth it but not enough to pump adrenaline into my body. I have to admit that I am such a wuss but I dont know happened that triggered me to participate in paragliding. I was reciting dzikir non-stop, I swear. Haha.

They took us to a halal chinese restaurant on the 2nd day and served us with seafood BBQ by the beach. Heaven!

On the minus side, I was disappointed to know that there arent many halal seafood restaurant. But otherwise, buying pearls is a must! love them! beware of fake pearls. Apparently there 2 types, ' air masin' and 'air tawar'. The former is more expensive and delicate.

All in all, it was such a beautiful experience.I dont mind going to KK again.

Generous spirit

2011-09-05T06:30:00.000-07:00

Eid to me is a 'highway' to ask for people's forgiveness. You could do it the drama queen way or just casually mention it. Either way, your deeds will be counted and you've done your part. Whether the other party accept your forgiveness or not, that's a completely different story. One of the things that I like about this victorious day.

Celebrating Eid to me also means giving away some 'angpau'. You could give as much or as little as you want. But the feeling after is indescribable. Be it to your close relatives and families or to distant needy strangers. Even if it means your left with RM13 in your account. Gone all those days where I was at the receiving end.

My 'Hari Raya' involves a lot of comfort eating that us

ually left me feeling guilty. My bowels had gone through annual unnecessary trauma. Sorry Mr Bow, you have to work extra hard these few days. I promise I will make sure you get some rest soon - puase 6 in order.

My 'Aidilfitri' isn't complete without visiting relatives and friends, an opportunity to visit the rich and the poor people. Its a reminder to not always look up to the affluent. This world maybe a kingdom to the wealthy but who knows, the next world maybe the kingdom of the poor.

Till then, let the raya spirit continues in abundance. xxx

Redha

2011-08-25T18:40:00.000-07:00

Today is the day I received the big news. I kinda expected it. I knew from the moment I stepped out the examination hall, it's going to be 50:50. In other words, I need a huge luck to be on my side. I missed by 8 points. That is equivalent to 1-2 questions.

He did give me a taste of success last year, alhamdullilah. I'm still ever so grateful to Allah. Perhaps, the life I'm getting currently is so stress-free and mundane that I forgot to 'service' my 'iman'.

All gratitude to Allah, at least I know I didn't fail miserably. I know that for one, my knowledge in medicine is next to nothing. My experience is only barely minimum.

I guess He also answered my question whether to join Mmed. I hate the fact that I wouldn't qualified for sick leave and will only have 2 weeks of maternity leave. pffftttt.

Another 3k will be flying to Royal College soon. At least I know I have ample time to study. Its hard to stay on the positive zone. From today on, the glass must be half full. If it's half empty, I'll pour some water in. Hihi.

'O, Allah.. Give me courage to accept the things I cannot change, and the strength to change the things I can'

Till then, Selamat Hari Raya. Maafkan segala tersilap tutur kata, terguris hati. Loads of love xxx

Mandarin Oriental vs Traders Hotel

2011-08-25T06:52:00.000-07:00

The last time I was in Mandarin Oriental (MO) was 7 years ago. Back then, I was in awe with MO. After having gone to a few hotels, I'd say my ratings would be solely on their facilities ie hydrotherapy, free SPA. So far, Four Seasons, Doha is on top of my list. Imagine we paid RM2000 per night. Hihi. We didn't actually. The company did.

MO uniqueness lies in its location. Although Traders Hotel does provide a transport to KLCC, you still need to wait for 5 mins and often, there is a long queue :(
We did't get a room overlooking KLCC during our stay in MO but we were equally happy about it. We did have one when we were at the Traders.

MO hotel deco is very classy, beige colour mostly. On the other hand, Traders hotel offers more modern design. You'll notice that they have fresh flowers that looks fake but I swear they were real and pretty.

Free exotic local fruits every single day at MO. I had the whole guava to myself today. :)

Call me fussy but I prefer the bedsheets in Traders Hotel. I guess it has to do with egyption cotton thread etc.

The bathrooms aren't too bad but I don't like the idea of having door-less toilet. SO thumbs down to MO.

For some reasons, I can't seem to charge my toothbrush in the bathroom. I managed to do so at Trader's hotel. I suppose the gadgets are slightly more outdated in MO.

The sahur meals that we had at Traders Hotel isn't too bad either.

SO overall, I prefer staying at Traders Hotel. Its a shame that I can't get to use their pool and gymnasium. Its Ramadhan kan But I managed to have a quick peek

My way of covering the

double chin :)

Iftar at Bumbu Desa KLCC

Reminder to self

2011-08-15T22:53:00.000-07:00

We cannot run away from our society who loves to gossip, be it about good or bad things. For example, look at how politicians rise and crumble. All it takes is one silly mistake and you will be out of the game. Dr Chua Soi Lek is an exception though :P

If a politician misbehave or break our trusts, we will flip out. We'll move on and support another politician. However, some people would just lay him off and continue giving 100% support. Ahhhh, it doesn't matter, people make mistakes.

Hijabis are no different. They are not free of sins. It may be dampen the temptations to make sins, for instance, one may feel less inclined to go to nightclub with her hijab on. It provides as shield to prevent immoderate actions. That's not to say that non-hijabis are bad people. But isn't cruel to criticize one from wearing hijab just because she is found guilty. Practising a branch of Islam is undoubtedly better than not portraying any image of Islam. Has it ever occur to you that your relationship with God has its ups and downs? How many times do I miss 'solat' but still proudly wear hijab. Countless.

I guess what I'm saying is, its easy to form generalization and pass immature judgement. Till then, xxx

Health

2011-08-15T21:46:00.000-07:00

The importance of health often take a back seat until one has fallen ill. The spectrum of unhealthy, according to my dictionary, consists of mild illness ie flu-like symptoms to fatal, moribund disease ie terminal cancer, coronary artery disease. Our body will produce different signal in responds to different illness. I suppose, without those signals, making diagnosis will be more challenging.

You could argue that the alternatives would be running some blind tests, not to mention expansive. However, medicine allows you to have a few wild guesses and the investigations are only there to prove that you are right.

The danger of being in the business is, you tend to over-diagnose yourself. I have to always remind myself that the nature of insidious disease doesn't appear itself in 1-3 days. If I were to come up with a diagnosis, the best time would be at 7 days post-presentation, when all the puzzle fit together. We have to count acute illness out because in those circumstances, if you don't make a diagnosis there and then, you basically screwed.

So here I am, feeling under the weather in middle of Kerteh, living right next to babi-babi hutan. Whatever these vague symptoms are, I hope it lies in the mild end of the spectrum. Make dua's, iA.

Last but not least, very commonly heard hadith but never too young to start realizing.

“Take benefit of five before five:
your youth before your old age,
your health before your sickness,
your wealth before your poverty,
your free-time before your preoccupation,
and your life before your death.”[Hadith- al-Haakim, al-Bayhaqee, Saheeh]

What have become to England?

2011-08-09T00:17:00.000-07:00

The catastrophe incidents in London really sadden me. It wasn't love in the first sight with London but London still managed to capture my heart. It is such a beautiful city whereby security is less an issue than it is now. London taught me to walk in a fast pace, to stand on right on the elevator and to hold the door for the person behind.

Despite the influx of immigrants where you'd see 50% of tube passenger as non British, Its so annoying accessible. I wish KL is no different - not putting my hopes high though. Of course, you do encounter those thugs who loves prank. But they do it mostly for fun, not to harm others. I remember one day where a random teenager, probably a junkie, shouted right next to my ear. I was so taken aback that I screamed. He then laughed and walked off.

To make the matter worse, the irresponsible acts has now spread to other cities in England. Innocent people were killed, buildings were burned. Ruthless. Insatiable.

The English people I know are far better than this. Am religiously praying for my friend's safety all over in England. I hope it will turn back to normal again. I wish the teenagers/ looters will come to their senses.

I miss the tolerant Britain.

husband-pleaser

2011-08-08T16:56:00.000-07:00

that was us 7 years ago. Time flies.

Verdict: The feelings of being with ur husband 24/7 are indescribable, esp during Ramadhan. You gainsatisfaction just by ironing his clothes despite his attempt to re-iron the clothes. It doesn't matter if I've been downgraded from a comfy Dreams mattress to a spring mattress. Because the spring mattress comes with a cuddle, the former doesn't.

I longed for a place I can call my own where I can decorate and make it homey. Doesn't matter if it's tiny. InsyaAllah soon

Ps: check out my shoes. haha

KL

2011-08-03T20:54:00.000-07:00

There is no plausible explanation as to why I am still jet-lagged. Come on body, have some mercy!

I decided to buy some books at Kinokuniya yesterday just to kill the time. Seriously, at this rate, I think I'm going to die of boredom. Not that I'm complaining, but I was so restless at night that I, myself cannot fathom why its so hard to fall asleep. My double chin is growing to triple. My tummy will probably extend its size without any growing baby, yet!

I am currently reading ''Something Borrowed'' by Emily Giffin. Havent actually seen the movie but I quite like the reality of it. It is about two best friends, one is prettier, taller and slimmer than the other. She (A) is always fishing for compliments whilst the other prefer (B) to stay on the sidelines. Until one day, B had a one-night stand with her best friend's fiance. Ouch. Truth hurts.

Apart from spending time at Kinokuniya, we went for iftar at Penang cafe next to the cinema at KLCC. I had mee curry, awesome! Took some snapshots outside KLCC which I absolutely love, will update the photos soon, iA.

The beauty of living in KL is, you can find everything within close distance. We drove to Ampang Park to get a double cheese burger. Bliss. I'm feeling slightly guilty coz my other half had to stay awake to satisfy my cravings and this morning, he went to work late. The Twin tower is only 5 mins away but we still woke up late.

Till then, xxx

My sleeping beauty

Update

2011-08-02T11:00:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum everybody

I've been home for 3 days but why does it feel like 3 days? Hihi.I guess I was always on the ball.Sitting at home doing nothing is just not me. The plan is for me to have 6 months break but I can see myself working after raya.Loser!!!

I was trying to find a word to describe my feelings at the mo. content is probably the closest.

Despite being horribly jet-lagged, Im able to recite the Quran. That is a nikmat in itself to me.A lot of people wish to read the Quran more often but they are just too tired and caught up with work. That was me last year :p

So peeps, lets grab every single oppurtunities. all things are considered good deeds if it is done by the name of Allah. I have done one good deed today, allow me to brag.

I offered a free spa service the orang kampung style to abang syg.except that I didnt use minyak urut. I applied loccitane lotion. Loves to see him unwind.Its Ramadhan ok dont think bukan2. :) till then. Ramadhan kareem.

Every goodbye makes the next hello closer

2011-07-30T02:24:00.001-07:00

I can still vivdly remember 7 years ago when I first arrived in England. It was cold and windy unlike today. Over the years, I have been to variety of places, met many people, but some are dearest to my heart.

Being miles away from family isn't easy. But these wonderful people has made my life less dreadful than I'd imagine. They never failed to offer me a lift, shared their mum's food with me, and laughed at my ''dopey'' personality.

My pronouciation and grammars are being checked constantly. They even helped with my applications, aren't I lucky?

Needless to say, my Malaysians friends have been my main support. I always look forward to see them on the weekends. My comfort zones-where I can speak in Malay with no grammars whatsoeva. My buddies when it comes to shopping and refunding the day after.

I am truly indebted to each and everyone of you. Thank you. Come wisit me in Malaysia.

For the rest of the crew, lets enjoy nasi lemak and teh tarik. Fatin we will be thinking of you. Happy Ramadhan. May this Ramadhan marks the beginning of a new life, full of barakah, iA.

Reminiscing

2011-07-28T13:27:00.000-07:00

I just got back from London. As I walked through London city, the cold breeze reminded me to the first day I ever arrived in England. That day, I flew with MAS bussiness class, right behind the pilot and the co-pilot. F kept me company. That was how it all started. By the time we reached Manchester, it was already dark. But that didn't stop us from taking photos outside the stadium. *I wish I have my hard disk so I can post up some photos*

It was cold in September. We all came unprepared. No woolly clothes. Just plain suit. We all looked smart though esp S with his mustache.

We were welcomed by our lovely seniors. They have kindly let us stayed overnight at theirs. Well, many nights actually. I am truly indebted. Thanks Kak P. Only Allah can repay ur kindness.

I can still remember our second day in England during a prank introductory lecture. There was this Sikh guy who was scolding others for turning up late. He gave us a horrible picture of how it was going to be in University of Leicester. I thought of going back home until I realized it was all a prank. Tough.

Next was the real, genuine introductory lecture by Prof P. I was so glad that at the time, I understood Prof P English. It took me some time to catch the accent. I got by. Alhamdullilah.

Here I am, less than 36 hours to leaving England. I have a lot more to tell about England. But I guess I should save juicy stories for later. Till then, tc! xxx

This is where I belong

2011-07-28T12:59:00.000-07:00

I have been busy revising and packing that I completely abandoned my humble blog. Now that exam is over, I have more time to myself, reflecting things that have gone wrong, things I have enjoyed, and things that I wish to never re-visit.

Having lived in England for the past 7 years have taught me things that I may not acquire at home. I am very un-domesticated, but my lovely friends somehow make me a little more domesticated. I love cracking up jokes but I often have trouble understanding their jokes. Hence, I get called names like blonde, blur. If nothing else, England has taught me the meaning of true friendship. In Malaysia, you have family to lend a hand, in England, all I have is my friends. My darling friends.

England will never be the same without me friends. I have known them for 9 years. Over the years, you get to know each unique personalities. If a conflict arise, one will comprise. We rarely take things to heart, coz we know it will get back to normal the next day.

They say, university life is the best part of our life. Indeed Allah SWT has blessed me with this wonderful journey that I will cherish forever.

We will all make our separate ways. One is expecting a baby while I am yet to conceive. Eh digressing plak. DOakan :)

I guess all I am saying is, its nice to have fish and chips once in a while but you always want to come back to nasi lemak, if not nasi ayam.

We prefer the familiar faces. Our tongue get so comfortable speaking in this language with no grammar whatsoever. Its so much easier to call 'dia' than 'he' or 'she'.

Best wishes to all.

Random

2011-06-30T14:16:00.000-07:00

I am about to embark on a new journey. I don't know what lies ahead of me but I've come to learn to intervene less with His plans and go with flow. Ahhh..easy to say !

No I'm lying. I'm actually apprehensive about my future. Will I have the courage and the will to endure Masters programme? or should I just settle for less, ala jadi doktor biase2 kat klinik ie chronic MO.

On another note, I cant keep my mind off cute babies. Babies are just adorable. They say the strongest bond is between a mother and a child. Can you imagine me being a mum? I will stuff my kids with macaroons and cake.

I can imagine myself with my children. I can imagine the tears of joy. I guess its only natural for us to be a good wife and a good mother. I will hold on to the saying ''there will always be ''rezki anak''. So bring it on!

Indulgence

2011-06-29T11:29:00.000-07:00

Those who know me knows that I am no different from the girls out there. Shoes and handbags are like chocolates to me. Except that they are expansive!.

I have a collection of shoes but always ended up using the same old pair of shoes. The weather in England is not permissible. Its always good to blame someone else to make myself feel less guilty.

They are the most comfy shoes. I know I can always jump up and down on my patient's chest and not risking breaking my ankle.

Moving on, handbags are just precious for women. Who the hell invented designer handbags in the first place? But I dont have enough money for designers. Cough. Good leather handbag will do. Bought one for MIL and one for me. Guess which one is which?

Moving on, I bought a new frame and lenses. 50% off ma. But still mahal.

Wonder how much versace or Prada frames cost in Msia?!

I do have the desires to buy designer handbag (more). but but nak simpan duit beli downpayment kete. Istifar byk. Lain la kalau ayang nak blanja. Bonus PET banyak kan? LOL

On another note, To those who are interested in buying my pre-loved items.

Brand new. Tak sempat pakai.Sebenarnye dah gemuks :P New look. Rm45. size 8

Bay. Rm25. size 6

Warehouse RM 35. size 8

Delivery Rm7 akan di hantar after 30 July.

p.s: A, Nak blog update kan? Haha...kena la upah handbag baru satu :P *plastik nye isteri aku ni*

Weekend chores

2011-06-18T10:29:00.000-07:00

Hello folks,

Guess what I've been into this weekend. I am so proud with myself, not!

Well, to cut the story short, I made an attempt at making Macaroons on Friday night. But iwas really disappointed with the outcome. I stormed out of the kitchen and got into my bed. Tido sampai pagi Makyah. Lupe nak solat! The Macaroons turned out sangat leper ok! So the next day, I felt so inspired to follow the recipe word by word.

My other half never got a chance to try Macaroons. SO balik kena buat la kan and FY1 he does have a sweet-tooth:)

SOme say, Macaroons are overrated. Hmm, Macaroons do have a distinct taste. Its chewYYY and not to mention, its a potential hazard to your teeth:)

I was in the middle of making Macaroons suddenly the doorbell rang. I thought it was Palshipping company who came to drop the boxes.

''Hello Siti, You have a flower delivery''

'Pardon, do you mean boxes?' It later become apparent to me, its our first anniversary :) How can I forget ?!

I think I no longer need imaginary Seth Tan?
Thank you for putting up with me. Thank you for having my back when others seem to disagree. Thank you for all your sacrifes. Thank you for being so understanding. I will feed you with thousands Macaroon, soon I promise!

updates

2011-06-12T16:07:00.000-07:00

It has finally sunk in..6 more weeks before I get to cuddle my teddy bear again. England has been so kind to me and we get bonded so well. To those who have been to England, you know what I mean. To those who have been but doesn't get what I mean, its ok. You and I are probably in a different wavelength.:P

In preparation, I have bought a few stuff that I thought might come handy in rainy days. I am surprised I haven't got much stuff to take home except clothes. Hence I am going for boxes, no cargo shipping.

I bought candy red kitchenaid mixer today. I have been contemplating for a little while, but I lost to my own temptation. My other half promised to pay for the kitchenaid. In return, I have to bake him a cake every single day. But I am planning to negotiate, how about every year hunny?

On another note, I went for a SPA treatment today, The beautician told me that she felt knots on my back. hmm, but otherwise, I thoroughly enjoyed the session. There were 4 of ours, all girls celebrating the bride-to-be. So for those who are getting married, hen do at a SPA centre aint that bad!

On a bigger note, I have exam coming up pretty soon! I will be pretty amazed if I pass but Allah swt never failed to impress me that His Rahmat are all year round. As always, duas are welcomed. If you pray for another muslim, u will be surprised to know that the rest of the angels will be praying for you :)

Nora Elena

2011-06-06T15:50:00.000-07:00

Camne ni dah angau tgk Nora Elena ? Org kate nur kasih lg best tp saye tak tgk. Camne ni? Saya angau kat Aaron Aziz..tak pernah buat kerja gler ni sejak kawen. Abang sayang terpaksa la gi gym utk fit cam Aaron Aziz * cough batuk berdarah * LOL

Spain trip

2011-06-04T07:23:00.000-07:00

Our family vacation was awesome despite a few mishaps along the way. Ever since I have been in England, travelling has been my hobby, the backpacker style of course! But I've never encountered these much glitches.

Over the years, I developed an inclination towards hotel rather than hostel, esp when my parents tag along. Hostels are just not convenience for the 'warga emas'. So this time, mum booked an apartment in Salou which is located in South of Barcelona via RCI.

A few days before the trip, I managed to book 2 automatic vehicles online via 'economy car hire'. I paid 600 GBP in total for 1 van and 1 hatchback car. Yes, its a rip off. One thing I was aware of was, those prices are inclusive of full insurance. I don't normally pay a hefty sum of money for insurance, but this time, I thought, why not, since thieves and pickpockets are everywhere in Barcelona- so I was told!

Mishap no 1:

We were 2 metres away from the apartment. My brother in law was trying to overtake a bus. Mind you, in Spain, its left hand drive. He managed to 'kemekkan' half of van. So I had to liase with the driver bus who doesn't speak English. How unlucky. The driver insisted that we followed him. We were halfway through, then it strikes me. Wait a minute! why do we have to follow him! So I got on the phone with our car company and told them the story. I asked the driver to just take note of our registration number and off we go! The courtesy car came the day after. I swear my phone bill gonna cost a bomb this month!

Mishap no 2:

My sister brought 2 sat nav (GPS)s with her, unfortunately, there is only 1 charger available. She was supposed to drive behind our van but tough luck! we got separated with her GPS uncharged! So there I was standing at the end of the road, waiting for my sister to pass by.

I spotted them and shouted like mad. Man, they didn't even flinch! I had to run after the car. Luckily there was a police car and I spoke to them with broken English ' Ford car, run!'

The two handsome policemen chased my sister's car and waited for me to slowly run behind them. When I arrived, my sister refused to budge and was under the impression that she was getting busted by the police. LOL. I said, ''turn around and follow me''! Mission accomplished!

Mishap no 3:

We were on our way to Barcelona Airport to catch our flight to Seville, walked to car park and found out that the sport rim covers were stolen! They took all 4s! TOGEL!

Mishap no 4:

We were so excited to see Barcelona football players..Barcelona won 3-1 remember...taken aback by the phone call from Malaysia. Our house got broken into!! 2 laptops gone missing and the theft rummaged every single drawers and what not! I guess they were killing two birds with a stone. Took some valuable items and also had fun! They found my sister's cheque book and signed them all. Ni mmg tak pergi sekolah ni!

Anyway, that aside, I did have good fun in Spain. Mum cooked nasi lemak twice! Cayalah. The best thing about eating nasi lemak is you could have a nap after pretty straight away! The effect is miraculously spontaneous!

Tapas and Paella aren't that bad!

In summary, we plan, but Allah SWT is the best planner. I hope my parents had fun as much as I did. At the airport, mum surreptitiously slipped a few euro notes to my hand. Tears rolled down my cheek and I whispered 'Aisyah tolong ikhlas'.

Why not pamper them when they are still up and about ?!

Enjoy!

What goes around comes around!

2011-05-21T12:18:00.000-07:00

The past month has been quite a roller coaster for me. It was as if I was on the brink of a cliff. I nearly fall. I slipped a little but alhamdullilah I came back to my senses.

I rang a good friend who is currently doing her housemanship in KL. I feel sorry for her. I wish I could do sthn in my power to change the situation. Unfortunately, I'm powerless. I don't understand how people can be so cruel and rude toward others.

It may not happen to every houseman but there are people who actually loves making other people miserable esp the juniors. They think 2 years of extra experience has made them qualified to treat others with contempt.

The non-muslims probably may not hold to this belief but you, as a hijabis, you even have the guts to make other people's life upside down. Not to mention, senior nurses who think the first poster is an idiot, deserve to get shouted at.

Fair enough, they may be slow, but you dont have to shout at them in front of patients! That only reflects how bad a person you are! Take them aside and tell them off by all means. But please treat them with a bit of dignity.

If a senior nurse or a lab technician is being rude to a houseman, we shouldn't answer them back. You shouldn't stand up for yourself. Just admit it was your mistake even if it wasn't yours. My friend was being penalised for being rude to a lab technician. The lab technician decided to tell the MO and she was shouted at and humiliated. Without looking into the matter, she was labelled as someone yg suke menjawab and was given verbal warning. Life is so unfair isn't.

Low blow.

Please don't blame if I don't come home early. I've got an option and I am going to use it wisely.

Interesting article.

http://lifegotstory.blogspot.com/2011/05/doctors-are-treated-like-crap-in.html

Family vacation

2011-05-18T13:02:00.000-07:00

I am not boasting but I am blessed in such a way that Allah has allowed me to see His creations across the continent. In fact, I have been to Italy 3 times, Paris and Switzerland twice. Mostly because I was asked to take my family around Europe.

My last trip to Europe with parents was exactly 2 years ago. I took them to Istanbul and Italy. They were ecstatic about it, and so did I. My parents are not from Datukship background. tHeY earn dollar the hard way. But alhamdullilah, rezki Allah bagi, they gets to travel the world - China, Switzerland, Italy, France, Luxembourg, Paris, New Zealand, Australia to name a few.

I feel privilege to take them to Spain next week. This time, they aren't just my parents. There will be 10 of us, including me. We are going to Barelona, Seville and Granada.

I can't contain this excitement partly because I'm thrilled to see my family and also because I am keen to visit Spain again.

My Spain visit was nearly 6 years ago but the memories seem vivid still. The higlight of the trip was when we visited Al-hambra. Al-hambra is an old palace which was built by our Muslims warrior. I am not a historian but from what I read, the Khalifahs managed to conquer Spain via Morocco. Check out Spain and Morroco map. ALthough there are in different continent, there are actually really close, you can even swim across the sea. OK I am exaggerating!

They say, if you haven't been to Al-hambra, you haven't lived.

Indeed, Al-hambra is such a special place, the moment you step in, you feel like you are in a different planet-almost magical. The great thing about it is, you can clearly see Allah's name in every corner of the palace. It was beautifully engraved that everytime you see them, you lips cant't stop reciting zikrullah.

Palacio Nazzarie

After seeing Alhambra, we decided to eat kebab which was near Al-hambra itself. It was halal and yummy. Whilst ordering the kebabs, a muslimah passed by and told me that there will be a Jumaah prayer in Albicini mosque in 10 mins. I wasn't eager on going initally as it was an uphill walk, but we thought, why not?

As soon as we arrived, there were a group of hijabis. They looked so fashionable with their hijabs. I tried having a conversation with them unfortunately, none of them speak English. They speak French mostly.

Albicini Mosque

So there I was, standing and smiling like kerang busuk. Nodding my head every now and again trying my best to comprehend their minimal English. I failed miserably.

Despite not having understood each other, there were unexplained warmth between us. We were served with cous cous and had it the prophet's way. WE sat in circle and eat the cous cous in a large 'dulang'. It was finger licking good.

The beauty of Albicini mosque lies in its location. You can have a direct view of Alhambra from top. That night, I remember telling hubby(ex-bf), What an invitation from Allah. It felt like Islam was alive in Granada still.

It happens that we will be going to Granada on Friday next week. I can't wait to visit that mosque again. This time, I am going to take my Iphone and google a few French words just so I can say something back to them.

For those who haven't been to Spain, you may start saving up! Till then, may Allah make our journey easy next week.

Love,

Ecah

Drowning in tears

2011-05-09T05:20:00.000-07:00

The last few weeks has been tough. Having worked for nearly 2 years, I thought I can handle stresses and emergencies. Intensive care unit is a complete alien to me. It was a massive blow to my confidence and I fell hard. Really hard that I don't think I can get up and running again.

I think I have issues with luck and my incompetencies! Working with ITU consultants in emergencies really made me pause and think, 'I dont want to this anymore'
A) I dont know how to draw up and dilute thiopentine.
B)I get confused with ephidrine and phenylephrine.
C)I just don't give a toss

Its meant to be a well supported environment, but the knowledge gap between a consultant and a trainee is too huge. I can sense their frustration - Useless FY2 who doesn't know a thing about anesthetic drug let alone how to intubate.

I would appreciate a registrar's help as a buffer to my stupidity. Unfortunately, that isn't a choice, is there?

I was about to make a horrendous decision that I know I will regret at some point.I thanked my supervisor for bringing me to my senses. I was on the verge of quitting. It was that bad.

I hope it does get easier with time. I wish I'm stronger than this. God, how am I going to survive working in Malaysia. I am such a wuss! *throw bottles to myself*

Road trip

2011-04-28T00:29:00.000-07:00

We were on our way to Cornwall when I stumbled across Hanafedora pagewww.hanafedora.co.uk/2011/04/st-ives-cornwall-england.html. What a coincidence ey?

Anyway, I have to admit that St Ives is stunningly beautiful. It didn't feel like I was in England. Despite the short stay, we were absolutely terrific about our trip. The accommodation prices are generally pricey. We stayed in a hotel as the cottages are all fully booked

They say you can either go to St Ives or Penzance. Personally, I see no point of going to Penzance just because Penzance lacks the natural beauty. However, if you decide to go by train, you may get off at Penzance and join the tour bus from there.

We pulled over on the motorway to empty our bladder. We were surprised at how beautiful the landscape was! Subhanalla!

To me the highlight of the trip was the food! Sorry la There arent many restaurant in Kettering!

We stopped by at Bicester Village on our way. There arent much choices either. Bosan. But turned out there is a new Thai restaurant on site. Waaa...sedapnye.Rasa masakan Malaysia ok!.Apparently they have another restaurant in WestField. Kena pergi ni.:)

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusan.

2011-04-17T10:15:00.001-07:00

I am going to embark on a new journey. There will be familiar faces, no doubt, but different nonetheless. I have to admit that I'm not very good with changes.totally sucks at it.

I shouldn't be saying this, but I do wonder whether I will regret the decision I made. Too many uncertainties. I suppose I am too complacent living in this side of the world that I forget, I have a lot more responsibilities to shoulder.

Every now and again, I have this self-monologue, full of what-ifs. I have been blessed with so many nikmat, Alhamdullilah, often I got carried away.

I am going to pay back this 'duit rakyat' by working with the hospital government. I know some of my friends were 'treated with contempt'. A few of them, on the other hand, sail smooth-sailingly.

I lowered my head to the ground and tears rolling down my cheek without me realizing. I really hope Allah will make my path crossed with the nicest team and consultants. I am not very good at handling harsh criticisms.

As I read through the Quran, I heard a busy bee making noises outside the window. I closed the Holy Book and re-opened it in the hope that the next 'ayat' is going to make me feel better about my decision. After 4 attempts, I finally came across this beautiful 'surah' Children of Israel, 18-21

18. Whoever wishes for the quick-passing (transitory enjoyment of this world), We readily grant him what We will for whom We like. Then, afterwards, We have appointed for him Hell, he will burn therein disgraced and rejected, ( far away from Allâh's Mercy).
19. And whoever desires the Hereafter and strives for it, with the necessary effort due for it (i.e. do righteous deeds of Allâh's Obedience) while he is a believer (in the Oneness of Allâh Islâmic Monotheism), then such are the ones whose striving shall be appreciated, thanked and rewarded (by Allâh).
20. To each these as well as those We bestow from the Bounties of your Lord.
And the Bounties of your Lord can never be forbidden.
21. See how We prefer one above another (in this world) and verily, the Hereafter will be greater in degrees and greater in preference.

Fully reassured, I googled on our new apartment and I instantly had a smile on my face.

Sorry if I keep repeating myself. totally sucks at making decision! Take care ladies xxx

Shopaholic is my middle name

2011-04-16T13:04:00.000-07:00

Hey ladies,

Look what I found today!

Very summery, I like!

My waistline is getting bigger. Must be the lack of exercise! These days I tend to buy those outfit that will last me for long. Unfortunately, due to my height, it has still got to be size 8. But at least it wont show my tummy right! So in short, ni baju maternity saya aka tak pregnant tapi buncit! Berangin2 nanti kaki saya di Malaysia. :)

At loose ends

2011-04-15T06:54:00.000-07:00

Hi ladies and husband AKA my biggest fan who keeps bugging me to update the blog,

I was reading another blogger's entry and I felt the urge to pen down similar thoughts, if not the same.
In this stage of our lives, we are bound to make decisions. Some may argue that we should just go with the flow and shouldn't think too much about the future. In some ways, I think they are right, this decision making has taken its toll on me. On the other hand, I think every decisions made should be based on others past experience and also by doing some research. Not to forget, plenty of istiqarahs.

The same goes in medicine. Every single treatment should ideally based on evidence. ''Evidence based medicine'' as they call it.

Its true that what works for others may not work for you. But thats when istiqarah comes into play.

So Allah, I wanna thank you for all the guidance so far. All Praises to Allah. I am truly sorry that sometimes I put my patient's life before You. Despite all that, you still showers with me with plenty of nikmat. Alhamdullilah. I am sorry that sometimes I got so tired and go to bed without saying thank You. Yes, I am such an ungrateful slave.

Sunny Saturday

2011-04-09T12:11:00.000-07:00

Intensive Care Unit

2011-04-07T15:19:00.000-07:00

I am currently doing Intensive Care Unit. Enjoying it to bits but dreading it sometimes. It was meant to be in a control environment but somehow, today, the post-resuscitation care turned into a disaster!

I was only the by-stander. Trying hard to observe on how to put an Arterial line. I have to admit that I actually was struggling during my first ITU ward round. Their way of writing notes is completely different from the medics.

To add to my misery, I was thrown to prescribe noradrenaline, propofol, u name it! Propofol reminds me of the late Michael Jackson. He was allegedly given Propofol before he passed away. God, this drug makes human blood pressure plummets really quickly. BP-50/30.bug*er. and I am expected to remain calm. Its a controlled environment remember, haha!

But alhamdullilah, I am not complaning. it has been such a good experience! My aim is to do as many procedures as I can! I actually fiddled with the sonogram(ultrasound)! *smug* astaghfirullah

Last but not least, please dont curse me! I took me 10 months to finally take the courage and call it my 'baby' haha

Now, who wants me to scan (ultrasound) their tummy ? FOC :P

Bussiness

2011-04-06T15:48:00.000-07:00

I have always wanted to set up my own business. I guess my interest stemmed from my previous experience.

At the age of 15, my parents had to ''jual nasi lemak'' to send us to school. There were 6 of us in the family. It was a bittersweet experiece. The good thing that came out of it was that, it inspired me to work hard. The bad thing was that people looked down on us. There was once when my mom was shouted at because this obnoxious man had diarrhea after eating mum's nasi lemak. Poor mum.

When I was in Banting, my mum took up sewing classes. As a side income, she was selling ''kain baju kurung''. I remember selling some of the baju kurung to my friends in Banting. Never felt ashamed of it.

I did help some of my friends to buy hijabs from Malaysia.

So, I thought, since I'm coming home for good, why don't I start on some small bussiness. Hihi..nak pesan barang2 ape ke korang? Designer handbags anyone? Breast pump ke? Baju2 kiddies ke? My husband is coming in 2 weeks time..Kalo ade sape2 interested drop me an email k. sitinizar@gmail.com

Kalau nak beli baju, I suggest beli kat Forever21.com or newlook or warehouse or H & M. Nak Primark pon ok. Seriously, check out Forever21. Baju die lawa giler.

Jersey pon boley! Men's shirt pon boley! Ahhhh..semangat nye saya nak men-shopping!

I'm going to Bicester Village soon, so sape nak pesan ape2..I can add u on whassup and send you the photo. ok tak? hihi. sila email k! xxx

Trust

2011-03-26T13:36:00.000-07:00

My trust has been broken before that I choose not to trust many. Its ironic for me to say this since I sometimes wash my dirty linen in public/blog. Hence, the more reason I prefer this blog to be known to strangers than friends/families.

I am always upfront about things. I rather talk that someone straight her/his face than talk behind someone 's back. Somehow, at this stage of life, I've come to learn to appreciate one s good deeds and to forsake their minor ill behavior. I've learnt to keep things to myself. OK.I admit sometimes I blurt things out to my other half.

The Prophet (sws) said, "The best of you is the best to his family and I am the best amongst you to my family"Tirmidhi, Ibn Maajah.

You frequently see people falling into this trap. They treated strangers with kindness but ostracize their own family. Nauzubillah.

Bad Omen

2011-03-25T03:38:00.000-07:00

HI girlies,

Sorry, I've been abandoning the blog for quite some time. Have ever heard about nazar, red eye or simply, jealousy towards other? This happens in our day to day living especially during our blog-hopping session. :)

In this mundane world, its easy to feel jealous towards other, inadvertently or not. Therefore, we are encourage to say 'MasyaAllah' everytime good news befall others. We don't want them to get the red-eye :P

The inevitable scenario requires us to protect ourselves by reciting certain surah which can be easily said in 2 mins.

Surah Falaq (The Daybreak): Holy Quran 113:1-5
Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim
In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful
Say: I seek refuge in the Lord of the Daybreak
From the evil of that which He created;
From the evil of the darkness when it is intense,
And from the evil of malignant witchcraft,
And from the evil of the envier when he envieth.

Wa min-sharri haasidin 'izaa hasad.

Hasad-Hasad dengki ladies :)

Amalkan kawan-kawan.

Take care,

Make duas for me insyaAllah

Not long before I'll be in your arms again

2011-03-17T11:56:00.000-07:00

I've made up my mind, finally!
It wasnt easy at the begininng, but it became easier as the day goes by.
I might have regrets but I will deal with that later.
As for now, I just wanna be in his arms. My husband so cute it will be such a waste not to spend time with him. Kidding Astagfirullah

I'm coming home soon, insyaAllah. Application withdrawn. I accepted another offer by the Almighty. Full-time housewife for the next few months starting August. I hope I'm ready. My mythos is that in this life, you just have to perservere, insyaAllah you will sail through.

Below is the email sent to me this afternoon,

As requested, your application has been withdrawn.

Thank you once again for your application to CMT in 2011, and we wish you all the best for your future career.

Yours sincerely,

The Specialty Recruitment Office

Royal College of Physician

Thank you Allah for showing me the light. Thank you ayang for letting me make decision under HIs guidance, insyaAllah.

Till then, have a good weekend lovelies! xxx

Too much to bear

2011-03-12T13:34:00.000-08:00

Sedey ok. Rasa kosong. Nearly miserable.

A lot of people wonder. How on earth do we cope with long-distance relationship? Alhamdullilah, we get by.

Tapi ni dah 2 hari tak cakap dalam tepon. Rindu. Sedey la. Kat sape kite nak membebel.

Kite doa ayang selamat kat laut china selatan tuh ok. With all the tsunami.Kite risau.

Kadang-kadang kita rasa, kenapa kite bongok sangat? tapi ayang kate takpe, ayang support kite

abiskan exam. Ayang pon nanti offshore.

Kadang-kadang kita rasa tak nak kerja! kite penat kadang-kadang nak kencing pon tak sempat. Tapi

kite pk, mana-mana kerja pon penat.

Kadang-kadang kita marah kat diri sendiri.

The 'white flag' is raised. Kite rindu ayang. *tears roll down my face*

Wedding video

2011-03-12T01:28:00.001-08:00

Alhamdulillah

2011-03-09T12:53:00.000-08:00

I got offered a job. Currently, still double-minded. Ya Rabb. This is tougher than I thought! Please make dua for me. I just want the best for my future, iman and family.

Missing him dearly

2011-03-07T14:55:00.000-08:00

Remember that day when I solemnly promised to become your wife, it was the happiest moment of my life.

Remember when I told you that you're the best husband in the world, I mean every single word uttered.

Remember when I say despite being miles away, I got my heart set on you.

Remember every time we got tearful, when the distance seems too much for us to bear, remember that in my eyes, theres only you.

It may not rhyme, but it rings a melody in my heart, a soundtrack that keeps me going.

2 roads

2011-03-04T15:51:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone,

Just finished my nights shift. It was a pure relief. I think its a sign that I'm aging. Alhamdullilah, all I could say is ''It could have been worse''. I managed to get 3 hours sleep in between. The key is to always doa to get a calm night shift. Haha. Bak kate doktor malaysia, doa jangan 'jonah' ok. 'Joyah' takpe :P

So after several attempts of istiqarah, I have yet to see the signs. My gut feeling is telling me that its either Singapore or Malaysia. I'm more inclined towards Singapore solely because I dont really wanna spend months of doing nothing whilst he is at work.

The question remains. Will I get a job a Singapore? Even if I don't, I'll keep him company. He has sacrificed so much now its my time to return the favour.

I secretly hope (not secret anymore!) that if I'm not meant to stay in the UK, I rather not have the offer at all. It will make the decision-making so much easier. In some ways, I feel like Allah is slowly preparing me for the change. When my tongue said 'whatever best for me' I know my heart preferred to take the backseat. Now that I let my fate lies in His hand, I feel more composed and calm. My heart is now slowly keeping up with my tongue.

So, If I dont get offered a job in a 1 week. I wont be applying for the second round. Thats it!

Maybe, I'd just give Singapore a try. My best friend only worked for a month and quit. It was too much of a challenge to her. Perhaps, I will do the same but I still wanna give the benefits of the doubt. Plus, there is only so much I can do in a hotel room. If only he can get an apartment in Spore etc. I swear I'll make sure the chimney smoke all day. (eh, ade ke chimney? :P)

Dont be surprise if I change my mind in a few weeks. I'm only following my instinct!

Keep the duas coming!

Love,

xxx

LoVe and Red

2011-03-04T14:53:00.000-08:00

Right. After some serious thoughts, Red fabric sofa it is!

It looks so comfortable, aint it?

Anyway, does anybody know where I can get similiar pattern fabric sofa in KL? I dont really like the idea of buying the sofa from England. Plus, I dont even know whether it can fit into our small apartment.

Currently looking for great bargains! Unfortunately, kitchenaid mixer isnt in my budget. Have to set my priorities right.

Scarf: tudung Hawa
Bag: Local designer
Dress: Warehouse

Close-up. Love the material!

Till then,

xxxx

Home decor

2011-03-01T03:04:00.000-08:00

I have been eyeing a couple of things for our future crib. Like weddings, sometimes, its the detail that makes a house 'homey', if not outstanding.

First off, we need to establish the theme. I've made up my mind-Ultra chic modern theme.

Glossy white cabinet with red kitchen appliances. Sexyyyy..

Ni lawa gak kan. Dapur kami kecik.

And kat dapur nak letak gmbr ayang. Just bought the frame.

Moving on. I've always like leather sofa. But after some serious thoughts, I think I'm going for corner fabric sofa.

Since its going to be 'open plan' its makes sense to have a red sofa. Where can I get red sofa ek ??

But I actually prefer duck egg/teal/tiffany colour than red.

We need some imaginative skill here. I dont like that bantal. Replace ngan di atas.

Jemput la datang di rumah nanti. Hihi

fashion crush

2011-02-27T01:10:00.000-08:00

Scarf: bought in a local boutique in Doha
Jumper: Zara
Bag: Cant remember, local designer from London....love love the furs

Verdict: Bought a new pair of shoes yesterday from Bertie. Its on massive sale how can I resist!? Feel slightly guilty. Dont know where to store the rest of my shoes and tops. Anyone interested?? Might let them go at some point, have to let them go!

Enjoy the rest of your weekend!

Send me some good vibes!

2011-02-25T16:19:00.000-08:00

All the effort and passion towards general medicine are starting to slowly diminish. I'm having a second thought, seriously no kidding

I was on my own this week. Its not unusual. the only reason why I'm complaining is because its ''half-term'' meaning most consultants are away ie enjoying the sun whilst Im busy slaving myself away in the ward. *FOUL MOOD* the whole wednesday. *I really should learn to leave medicine at the doorstep*.

I left at 8.30 pm today. But I was ok. I suppose I just get on with the job.

But, on Wednesday, I was beyond stress. There was a patient lying in hospital bed (terlantar di katil hospital) or more accurately, dying. And all I had at the time was one staff grade whose management only consists of ''renal review'' ''home today'' ''continue treatment''. I should istifar byk2.

Seriously..seriously. I was shitting myself. I had to break bad news to a relative when I didnt have a clue what the hell was going on with this patient. its really hard to be honest without upsetting the relative. Its hard to say that his/her relative is dying, that comfort takes priority.

Doctor: he has been a fighter but this time, it will be too much for him to fight.

Relative: What do you mean?

Doctor: I think its best to let the nature takes its course. I'm sorry.

Tearful relative. Upset doctor.

To my dismay, the cause of his deterioration was because my own stupidity. Oblivious. Why have I not learned??

If only I changed the antibiotic to IV, maybe, he will survive for another few days.

My registrar (not the above) was being nice. She said that ''there is nothing you could have done'' The patient already had 2 weeks of antibiotic.

Whatever it is, I hope he is in a better place, pain-free, needle-free.

Seriously seriously, I can take the physical burden that comes my way but emotionally - I dont deal with it very well. Thats my problem. Maybe I should work in the dark and play with images- radiology that is! Its still not too late, I hope!

My few options

2011-02-20T03:56:00.000-08:00

Option 1
Stay in UK. Still awaiting reply. Should get the result by March, iA

Pros

1)InsyaAllah, I'll be able to complete my MRCP.
Get to do most of the rotations including cardio-resp, nephro, rheumatology. It has always been my dream to work alongside with the best group of cardiologists in the world, Glenfield Hospital, Leicester.
I have done gastro, haemotalogy during my junior rotations.

2)My other half will be going offshore soon. Yeay. InsyaAllah, he will be able to come to England more often

3)I cannot emphasize how much I enjoy working in England. My consultants treat me with coffee every now and again. We, juniors, often get Christmas present from our big bosses. I'm intrigued to know whether you can even have civilized conversation with your bosses in Malaysia. Ouch. I need to steel myself for disappointment.

Cons

1)I've had enough of British weather. Seriously, sometimes I had to dress up like 'Santa Claus' just to get myself warm.

2)Some of my close friends are leaving the country for good :(

3) I'm sick of eating my own food!

4) I miss hubby, I want to settle down etc. hihi

5)Man, everything so expensive these days!

Option 2

Apply for a job in Spore. Hubby will be there until December this year at least. I heard Spore is no different from Malaysia. But most of the seniors are supportive and they have proper medical training.

Option 3
Come home and serve the country.

Many will say that I'm such an ungrateful git. Call me whatever you want. I'm made of steel, not!

The truth is, I want to get properly trained. I think medical training is an asset to me. Money will come when I become a consultant in 20 years insyaAllah.

With our health care situation, I'm afraid the outlook is looking fairly grim. I can write another entry on its own about our health care system but I dont think you guys will appreciate it.

I can either apply to KKM or apply to become a Uitm trainee lecturer. A lot of people say that KKM offer better salary.

Hand on heart, I rather work for less hours and money than working like a zombie who totally detest her job. But I'd like to keep my options open still.

*I better watch my words, it may backfire. No more designer handbags* wink

Am I cut out to become a lecturer?? Well, I can be fierce at times. haha.

Cons

1)I still dont know how to drive. HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!
The last time I drove was 6 years ago.

2)I hate the system. fullstop.

Option 4

Make babies and put career on hold for a couple of years. Bliss.

Fulltime housewife is not an option. Allah has given me this capability and ''kudrat'' to work, so why waste it?? InsyaAllah

I'm putting my 100 % trust in Him. I did this before I decided to work in UK for my foundation training. I got married following Istiqarah.Alhamdullilah Allah has given us something so beautiful and special like the Istiqa prayers. I have 100% faith in Him. Never have I doubted His ability to answer to my prayers. Make it with an open heart and believe that Allah will do whats best for you insyaAllah.

"Call upon me, I will answer your prayer" (S40:V60)

"O Allah! I consult with You as You have all knowledge, and I appeal to You to support me with Your Power and I ask for Your Bounty. For You are able to do things while I am not, and You know while I do not; and You are the Knower of the Unseen. O Allah If You know that this matter (mention the thing on your mind) is good for me both at present and in the future, in this life and in the hereafter, then fulfill it for me and make it easy for me, and then bestow Your Blessings on me in that matter. But, O Allah! If You know that this matter is not good for me in my religion, in this life and for me at present or in the future, then divert me from it and choose for me what is good wherever it may be, and make me be pleased with it."

So peeps, any duas are welcomed. Every little helps. :)

Of side incomes and overhead charges

2011-02-19T09:22:00.000-08:00

I will be jobless starting August 11. If I wasn't offered a job, chances are I'm coming home sooner than I plan.

Because of that, lately, I've been thinking on how to flourish my bank account which is deprived of money. I blame the high purchasing power in England. Kidding. I have only myself to blame.

I've been thinking about my overhead charges. Would I be able to give my parents the same amount of monthly allowance, if not more? Would I be able to travel twice or thrice a year like I used to do. Maybe not.

I'm interested in MLM but still hasnt got the blessing and permission from the other half. I think I can sell products by blagging. In some ways, I find the trick is unacceptable. Lets face it. Only the high ranking agent reap the most benefit. So the longer you are in the bussiness, the gemuk is ur bank account.

No disrespect to MLM people, but I have seen people whom their MLM bss went down the drain and they moved from one product to another. Is it ethical? I have no idea. Is it profitable? It certainly is! Is it 'riba'?? Dont ask me.

Who knows, hubby might change his mind in the future :)

In this modern world, I have always reminded myself to avoid 'riba'. Although I have to admit that I'm actually fighting a losing battle. How can you not get affiliated with ''riba'' these days. Look around. Its everywhere.

Excuses Excuses.

There are Islamic banking available. But as an ''insan'' we often get complacent. Lagipun Islamic banking is generally mahal.

I was thinking of getting into bussiness. Hey, I am young and energetic. *Cough* Its time for me to shine. I quite like the idea of opening a coffee shop. Ahhh..sangat cool. Did my research,apparently I need to get at least a 600 grand loan. WTH.

I really want to get into a healthy, halal and clean bss. I know I'm being irrealistic. Mane ade bss yg tak ade rasuah this days. Sigh.

Whatever best for me

2011-02-18T07:04:00.000-08:00

In life, there are things that don't go your way. Sometimes, you really want that something but often you get offered something else. If its good news, you will be happy. If its not, often you will ponder, why didn't He grant you that 'one' wish.

If He agrees to our wish, we will say, alhamdullilah, its a blessing. However, we shouldn't forget that a blessing comes with a trial.

Easier said than done.

Really, in every decisions, we should get Him involved. Obviously we want the best. Not aesthetically the best but the best in His eyes.

Its easy to write the above, but tawakal is a really hard thing to do. you have to make sure your heart is impartial about things, that your decisions are based on his Signs/petunjuk.

Whenever we make 'duas' we should convince ourselves that He will answer to our prayers.Indeed, 'dua' is a weapon for the believers.

Day 3

2011-02-14T23:21:00.000-08:00

I was slightly disappointed by the fact that there isnt much to do in Doha. Hence, we decided to check out the fitness centre. My mood was elated straight away after seeing the fitness centre.

Waiting area

Stairs to entrance

The changing room

The receptionist was really helpful. FYI she is Phillipino so we kind of click. She took us around the centre and to my surprise, there are actually alot of things that I'm missing in this world like hydrotherapy, colour therapy etc. Dont know that they do offer those kind of therapy in 5 * star hotel

The changing room againt

Too much hydrotherapy

This is one of the highlight of the trip. Since its Valentine's day, there are offering chocholate spa treatment. I'm sure gonna smell of chocholate and might eat my own fingers. Kidding.

Dont ask how much it costs me.

But hey any massage will do. Its sthn that I've longed for!

I am telling you this hydrotherapy is next best to spa massage. I found the foot reflexology useless. Rather have fish eating/licking my feet. Haha

Anyway,guess what I bought. Jeng jeng jeng. A beautiful dress and a pair of shoes. I'm skint! Hubby come rescue me. Haha.

I realized the dress is baggy so I get it tailored to my size. Will see the result this afternoon

Dress: Dorothy Perkins

Jegging: Primark

Shoes: Nine West

Last but certainly not least, Salam Maulidur rasul peeps. Indeed its a blessing to be among of His followers. SAW.

Till then, tc!

2nd day in Doha

2011-02-13T12:43:00.000-08:00

There isnt much to do in Doha. There are a few shopping malls but not up to par with Pavillion. But I shall not complain. I get to eat plenty. Alhmd. Woo hoo! The hotel breakfast was superb. The mango juice is pure MANGO. Blisss.

Unlike in Malaysia, there are not many people of our age who stay in this hotel. I suppose in Malaysia, you can find a lot of people who stay in 5 * hotels for work purposes. Sometimes, I feel a bit awkward. Do i dress properly? I dont want to dress like mak datin. :P

I find the hotel deco unique. There was a section of transparent vases filled with fresh flowers. It was arranged in a slanting position. Less volume but unique nonetheless.

We went to Waqif Souk for the afternoon. We noticed that the waiter/waitress didnt serve us well. Little did we know that they dont serve food until 4 pm. WTH? Disappointed and left for another shopping mall.

Had zinger and ayam. Finger licking good! Overall, the food prices are quite pricey. But I kept telling my hubby. Ala UK pon mahal, at least I get to eat halal meat in Doha. Honest to God, I'm sick of eating my own masakan :P. * I shall stop complaning*

*Sorry I'm digressing. We ve been watching BBC all evening. My prayers goes to our brothers/sisters in Egypt. Oh how I have disgraced myself by only sending my prayers to you guys. I cant even begin to imagine how my life would be in their position. But on the brighter side, this could be a way out for the Palaestinians.*

Till then,tc! Will take more pics tmrw. Promise!

candid

1st day in Doha

2011-02-12T15:34:00.000-08:00

Alhamdullilah we got invited to Doha this time. I was really excited since most of the food are halal. Trying local food and eating has always been the highlight of travelling.

The hotel is impecably perfect.

Never in a million would I be able to afford this kind of luxury. But Alhamdullilah He has made our short-holiday so special therefore lidah sentiasalah mengingati Nya.

My other half got a peck on the cheek every hour these days. If he made me upset, I got double peck on the cheek. I promised myself to make this short holiday memorable. I hope time will pass very slowly.

I ironed his shirt for the first time ever. He said ''thank you'' and added ''failed''. He re-ironed it.

i said ''YES BOSS''

Top: New Look

Jegging: Primark

Shoes: Clark

Scarf: Tie Rack

My futile attempt at looking pretty.

Note to self: must make more effort for hubby. Esok kite gi spa :)

Flower girls

2011-02-09T01:08:00.000-08:00

Arent they adorable???They are my nephew and nieces

I bought the dresses in UK..satu dlm 25 pounds...the boys pon ade..the boys lagi mahal coz i have to get the whole set. BUt its all worth it!!!

Arrrgghh..I want babies :)

Hantarans by Arma and Mama

2011-02-09T00:33:00.000-08:00

Wedding Dais by Readzul

2011-02-09T00:11:00.000-08:00

I was looking through ourwedding photos by our OP. I can still vividly remember that day whereby I didnt sleep the whole night waiting for the dais to be ready. Oh well. Sometimes, it helps to stay positive even the outcome may not turn out as you'd like it to be. Dais by Readzul.

Sometimes,you may even want to consider lowering your expectation. Because I'm afraid if things doesnt meet your expectation, you might fall, fall hard.

Dont get me wrong. I loved my dais. I just wished I slept that night so I look more like a princess than a zombie.

Wedding dresses

2011-02-08T23:05:00.000-08:00

Reception: Syomir Izwa

Nikah: Albert Yap

potong cake: UK

Indeed it should be one of ur main priorities. Reason being is simple. Its your day, its how your guests gonna remember u on the event.

Funny when some of my friends prefered my nikah attire which costed me 3 times less than my wedding outfit. I suppose u either like lace or u dont. You either like the colour or u despise it

The veil

And here goes the nikah attire

My potong cake attire.

And last but not least, food and setting are equally important as wedding dresses...

Caterer: De Selera Catering

I'm pretty satisfied with Duffy's service. I think the quality meets the price. However, sometimes, it struck me, Should I have spent more for my wedding photos. I agree with you Heed, maybe if I could turn back time, I'd probably hire Daniel Zain. *cough* but Duffy nye gambar not bad pe :P

ok lovelies. take care

Still in wedding mode

2011-02-08T22:26:00.000-08:00

My wedding wasnt fairy tale wedding. It was personal. It represented myself. I picked the colour, I picked the outfit. I loved the flowers. May not be everyone's cup of tea but its my cup of tea with 2 sugars in it. *cough*

I agree with some bloggers. Its the little tiny things that made the difference. I waited for the dais to completed just because I want to have a certain flower arrangement. Silly me.

There were a few mishaps during the event. You might want to basahkan your gusi now.

Our OP tried to snap my photos he accidently stepped on the curtain.

Berlubang bilik pengantin. Oh well.

Lets concentrate on the happy things, shall we?? I love my wedding shoes. Remind me again why did I buy Jimmy Choos..Grrr..really envy some people who has the time to look after themselves really well..My shoes dok dlm almari jek la. I dont have the time to melaram :(

Make up session

And cincin kami..

To be continued in the next entry...

Most awaited moment

2011-02-08T21:15:00.000-08:00

Did I tell you that my other half is in town? I'm relishing every single moment. Since he 's around, I thought I'll do the honour to introduce my other half to some of my local friends. So, I got involved into massive ~~weapon destruction~~ cooking festive. This is my chance to grab some pahala, so why not?

Remember, my previouspost about electric grill? Waaa..I'm proud to say that it has not been put to waste. But I have to admit that thesatay sauce wasn't home made though. But it tasted good all the same.

My flatmate helped me a lot with the preparation, thanks Fatin! Fadhli contributed towards the making of sate. Thanks Fadli. And of course, my other half was the pakcik sate kajang of the day.

Check out the dishes. Ade soto, ade mee goreng,ade pekedil, and jamie oliver chicken pie:)

Some of the guests

Pardon me for the low quality pics. Till then, lets make duas for each other peeps, iA xxx

Upon Request (Credit to Hummingbird Bakery)

2011-01-31T12:51:00.001-08:00

Spinach and cheese muffins

30 g butter

Half small red onion finely chopped

360 g plain flour

2 and a half teaspoons baking powder

1 teaspoon cayenne pepper

250 g cheddar cheese, grated

220 ml whole milk

1 egg

130 g baby spinach leaves

Preheat the oven to 170 C

Melt the butter in a saucepan over medium heat, then fry the onion until cooked. Set aside.

Put the flour, baking powder, cayenne and cheese in a large bowl. In a separate bowl, mix the milk and egg together, then slowly pour into the flour mixture and beat with a handheld electric whisk until all the ingredients are well mixed.

Stir in the opinion and spinach with a wooden spoon until evenly dispersed.

Spoon the mixture into the paper cases until two-thirds full and bake in the preheated oven for 30-35 mins, or until deep golden and the sponge bounces back when touched. A skewer inserted in the centre should come out clean. Leave the muffins to cool slightly in the tray before turning out onto a wire cooling rack to cool completely.

Come dine with me

2011-01-30T16:02:00.000-08:00

Ala korang, malas la nak hias2 atas pingan..I need to buy a dinner set first...Saya suka dinner set warna putih :) I bet sume org pon suke :) Preferably porcelain or ceramic only...I dont really know the difference between these two..do you?

Ok. Back to the subject

Lemon Loaf by your truly

Yummy. Oh yeah. This pan is really cool. You can transfer the dish straight into the

oven. And its beautiful too. Ready to serve.

Ok itu sahaja.

Havens - Maxwell & Williams Monaco Square White China Tableware 20 Piece Dinner Set

2011-01-30T14:03:00.000-08:00

Havens - Maxwell & Williams Monaco Square White China Tableware 20 Piece Dinner Set

Someone shoot me!!!

2011-01-30T12:00:00.000-08:00

I've committed a crime today. But I suppose I can still repent by refunding the items...

Black top and red handbag...sexxyyyyy...I always wanted to get a Mulberry Alexa but they are too expensive. So this will do, plus its pure leather ape? :) *Note the pokka dot design on the inside*

This will suit perfectly well with my winter jacket. love2

I suppose this handbag look better in real life than in pic. Let see if I have a better pic of it.

Oh well. Dont think the pic does it justice. In fairness, only the top bit is made of leather. Note all my handbags mostly have long straps. Its only because its very practical. Sakit lah my underarms!

The last bag is for MIL. Ruffle2 gitu. Credit to Calvin Klein.

Last but not least, thank you to Prouduck beautiful writing, I succumbed to temptation and bought the product.

Ok la kawan2...nanti update barang2 dapur i beli plak k..Lagi menarik dr handbag2 ni.

P:S: I made steak and lemon loaf arini...nanti gambar will follow k xxx

Passport Photographs

2011-01-30T02:27:00.000-08:00

I have an interview to attend in 2 weeks. Haven't really decided whether to stay or leave the country for good. i will cross the bridge when I get there.

In preparation for interview, Farah and I went to get our passport photograph. Below is what happen.

Sales person :pls sit at the corner.

Ecah: What?? Dodgy uh this place

*Ecah sat on the chair beautifully and smiled like kerang busuk.*

Sales person: your not allowed to smile.

*Ecah overheard this and kept smiling.*

Farah: Ecah. your not allowed to smile.

Ecah: What?? I can't smile. LOL. I wanna smile *throwing tantrums*

*Ecah and Farah giggled for a few mins. there was a couple who was waiting in the queue, accidentally let out a giggle but immediately turned round & snogged her other half as if they weren't listening*

*Ecah tried to smile less*

Sales person : ur not allowed to show ur teeth. Apparently it will distort your face.

Ecah: how mean?!?

P.s: I still managed to show my dimple.Dont tell me my dimple is a distortion to my face! grrrr

I should have known this. Im just becoming absent minded. Haha. Excuses 2.

Red Velvet Cake

2011-01-25T13:32:00.000-08:00

Hola,

I finished my weekend nights on a good note. As a reward, we went out to watch The King's Speech. The film requires high concentration but I've always been a fan of those kind of movie.

Anyway, aft3r all those hardwork and sweats I thought I should make myself and my flatmate a red velvet cake..

It was my first attempt and I am really pleased with it. Ahhh...think I'm ready to be a housewife. :) Thanks to Hummingbird Bakery

Red Velvet

60 g unsalted butter,

at room temperature

150 g caster sugar

1 egg

10 g cocoa powder

20 ml red food colouring (preferably

Dr. Oetker Red Food Colouring)

½ teaspoon vanilla extract

120 ml buttermilk

150 g plain flour

½ teaspoon salt

½ teaspoon bicarbonate of soda

1½ teaspoons white wine vinegar

1 quantity Cream Cheese Frosting

(page 11)

a 12-hole cupcake tray,

lined with paper cases

(see note on page 4)

Makes 12

Preheat the oven to 170°C (325°F) Gas 3.

Put the butter and the sugar in a freestanding electric mixer

with a paddle attachment (or use a handheld electric whisk)

and beat on medium speed until light and fluffy and well mixed.

Turn the mixer up to high speed, slowly add the egg and beat

until everything is well incorporated.

In a separate bowl, mix together the cocoa powder, red food

colouring and vanilla extract to make a thick, dark paste. Add

to the butter mixture and mix thoroughly until evenly combined

and coloured (scrape any unmixed ingredients from the side

of the bowl with a rubber spatula). Turn the mixer down to slow

speed and slowly pour in half the buttermilk. Beat until well

mixed, then add half the flour, and beat until everything is well

incorporated. Repeat this process until all the buttermilk and

flour have been added. Scrape down the side of the bowl

again. Turn the mixer up to high speed and beat until you have

a smooth, even mixture. Turn the mixer down to low speed and

add the salt, bicarbonate of soda and vinegar. Beat until well

mixed, then turn up the speed again and beat for a couple

more minutes.

Spoon the mixture into the paper cases until two-thirds full

and bake in the preheated oven for 20–25 minutes, or until

the sponge bounces back when touched. A skewer inserted

in the centre should come out clean. Leave the cupcakes to

cool slightly in the tray before turning out onto a wire cooling

rack to cool completely.

When the cupcakes are cold, spoon the Cream Cheese

Frosting on top.

PS: . To make a red velvet cake instead, double the

quantities below, divide between three 20-cm cake tins and bake for 25 minutes at

the same oven temperature. Frost with 2 quantities of Cream Cheese Frosting.

Makan-makan

2011-01-23T10:12:00.000-08:00

The fact that I'm doing nights oncall this weekend is so not ON! Had to 10 cannulas, stabbed pakcik makcik whilst they are fast asleep. Hate that feeling.

Despite the hectic schedule, for me its still a perfect weekend. Lovely housemate arranged for a small get-together.

Rendang by yours truly

Karipap by Fatin

Sambal Sotong by your truly

Masak merah by Fatin

Spinach and cheese muffins by your truly

And my 3rd attempt at making cupcakes....Frosting die tak jadi sangat la tapi.

I have reached a stage in my life where electrical appliances appear more appealing than fancy shirts or tops. These gadgets and goodies give me more satisfaction. So hubby must consider him lucky *cough*

I hope I will age gracefully. I have witnessed first hand how money doesn't matter much when u reach 60 s. Nothing beats the feeling of having to see your children becoming an ok or successful person, be it as a muslim or a nation.

But I still want both, career and family. I hope Allah will be in agreement with me.

Hubby will be coming over in less than 10 days. I take this as an opportunity to show off my baking/cooking skills. The last time I made him cookies he ate the whole jar in a day.

Till then, take care my lovely silent readers xxx

Weekend getway

2011-01-15T17:55:00.000-08:00

Hello ladies,

How did you spend your weekend?? Did you had fun?? me? absolutely. We went to London for 2 days. This is how we look like on our good hijab day

''Not bad Not bad''

Next is ''us'' again on our bad hijab day

hideous ??It doesnt matter. What matter is we had a real blast! We had good food. Alhamdullilah. it is by far the best steak I ever tasted!

It was well pricey but definitely worth every penny!!

And this

And this. Excuse my greediness.

And I was so close to buying this

It s on offer. 340 GBP. I love the colour. But my conscience is telling me NO. I have spent way too much this winter.

And this handbag doesnt do me good either. 30 % off. Oh no. I'm going bonkers. texted the price to my other half. Guess what he said? ''MAK AIH'' typical. I didnt buy either of them. My other half must be really proud of me. Thank my flatmate for keeping me sane. Hihi.

Bought ayang this. Everytime I buy myself a top, I always feel the urge to buy him one. My dad and him deserve every single penny in my bank account. Amboi. Cam banyak sgt jek kan.

And met up with our cool London boy.Man, he bullies and makes fun of me a lot.

loved the company. They say choose your close friend carefully. I couldnt agree more. “evil company corrupts good habits.” thanks korang.

P.S: Wish you were here ayang and Thank you Allah for every single nikmat.

brushing up

2011-01-09T06:47:00.000-08:00

I have been contemplating whether to buy kitchenaid mixer or not! why does it have to be outrageously expansive!!! I came across a kitchenaid mixer for 300 GBP. that is like 100 GBP less than the original price. The only catch to it is, its a display item. sigh. anyway, check out what I've been getting myself into this weekend...

So, what say you?? Kitchenaid or Kenwood ??

FYI, Kenwood is slightly cheaper. but Kitchenaid mixer is way sexier...hihihi

So lets droolllll.....

Reminder to myself

2010-12-29T21:02:00.000-08:00

A beautiful opening to my humble entry

''O who you believe! Truly, among your wives and your children are some that are enemies to youselves; so beware of them! but if you forgive and overlook, and cover up (their faults), verily Allah is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.''

This entry is going to be personal but I am pretty sure we all can relate to each other. Sometimes, I wonder, why is it that some families are so broken. Bukankah ''air dicincang itu takkan putus'' There you go! bile ecah berpatah Melayu.LOL

Seriously, why is sometimes easier to forgive strangers but not to your own blood? Why is it you see relatives not talking to each other, ''bermasam muka''? Why is it sometimes you keep them in your duas but you avoid them all the same?

I found solace in reading the above verse. My xxxx is so spoiled that sometimes I despise him/her so much. When I was little, I witnessed first hand how my parents struggled to make sure all their children have a degree in hand. Perhaps, he/she didn't get a chance to experience that. Perhaps, this is a test send down by God to me.

Nabi (sallallahu alayhi wasallam) invariably encouraged spending on one’s family. In one hadith, Abu Hurairah (RA) reports that he once asked Nabi (sallallahu alayhi wasallam), “Oh Prophet of Allah! Which kind of sadaqah is the best?” Nabi (sallallahu alayhi wasallam) replied, “The best of sadaqah is of that poor person who earns a living and spends firstly on whom he shoulders responsibility. (i.e. wife and children)” [Abu Dawood]

I shall overlook other people's weaknesses. I shall not judge others. I truly hope Allah guide him/her. ya Allah, jauhkan lah dia dari perkara2 zina. Ameen.

till then,

hugs and kisses

Knower of what is hidden and what is open

2010-12-29T20:32:00.000-08:00

There are too many things on my mind. Too many uncertainties. All these months, I've been looking for an answer. I don't know about you, but my ''iman'' has its ups and downs. I envy some people who manage to stay consistent and ''istiqamah'' in prayers. My nature of work sometimes forbid me from doing the routine. Sometimes, I have to admit I'm just too knackered to do anything. Or you may say that I am simply ungrateful.

One of the beauty of the believers is that Allah always knock on their door every now and again. Whenever you keep a distance with Him, it will soon become apparent to you that you have been neglecting you ''naluri'' needs and so you will come running to Him again.I'd like to think I have that kind of relationship with Him as I always get carried away with pure hedonistic pleasure.

Imagine if you have that kind of relationship with a friend. Most people will have a second thought to befriend this kind of person, but Allah is ever forgiving. It is Him who will guide you from going astray if you put your trust in Him. There is always a second chance should you believe there is no God but Him and believe in the Messengers.

Hubby will be working in Singapore for a year starting February. It will be without doubt a drastic change to our life. But I'm sure Allah has something else to offer.

Beautiful verses from Surah At-Talaq (65:12)

No kind of calamity can occur, except by the leave of Allah, and if any one believes in Allah, Allah guides his heart, for Allah knows all things.

(65:15-17)

Your riches and your children may be but a trial: but in the presence of Allah, is the highest reward.

So fear Allah as much as you can; listen and obey and spend in charity for the benefit of your own soul and those saved from the covetousness of their own souls- they are the ones that achive prosperity.

If you loan to Allah, a beautiful loan. He will double it to your credit, and He will grant you Forgiveness: for Allah is most Ready to appreciate (service) Most Forbearing.

Main points for today s entry in a nutshell : written so beautifully by Him. Till then, pls remember me in you duas xxx

Mental note: Exam in less than 4 months.

My latest obsession

2010-12-28T08:04:00.000-08:00

Went to Leicester for a retail therapy...alhamdullilah..got myself a few cute little silky top..hihi..

One of the highlights of leicester trip was when we played ARTICULATE. The rule is to give a description so ur team can guess the name, object etc. I, on the other hand is a lady with few words but full of expressions

I remember saying to the team..ok..this country is in Europe, and their football team wear yellow jersey..!!! They guessed Brazil..little did i realize that it wasnt yellow but ORANGE. The moment I said windmill they instantly shouted ''HOLAND''

Haha.Need to find out more on football. Lawak ke? Tak lawak takpe la

It was so much fun!

Hope u ladies r having fun too!!!xxx

PS: there was a bit of drama in the end....but it deserves an entry on its own..

Boxing Day

2010-12-26T13:49:00.000-08:00

Unlike last year, I managed to go shopping today. Went to bed quite late but glad I was still able to have a lie-in. I was determined not to get distracted by beautiful clothes. I wanted to buy kitchenware instead.
However, I was defeated. Temptations got the better of me.

Anyway, I want to share with u guys this hummingbird bakery book.It is indeed an excellent home-baking book.

My friend made this on our christmas dinner and it tasted yummy!!!So ladies, ape lagi???

On another note, heres a photo of us together..

We had a really good time on Christmas day.. my male friends call me ''bimbo'' but I beg to differ..yes I do sometimes have blonde moments but arent we all?

PS: since korang dah found out about my blog..meh kasi glamer sket..:)

The reason I feel melancholy on Christmas

2010-12-24T17:33:00.000-08:00

This Christmas is going to be the last Christmas in UK for some of my friends/mates.I am really excited about our get-together. I hope it aint going to be the our last. They have been my pillars of support.

I have always wanted to have roast turkey on Christmas. we managed to get a 6 kg fresh turkey woohoo! I swear it felt like carrying an 8 month old baby. Due to its huge size, the consensus has decided to leave the meat at the balcony(-5 C). Haha

Kitchen applicances review

2010-12-20T12:18:00.000-08:00

I've submitted the application. Macam orang giler buat karangan! Grrrrr.

Whilst busy doing my application, I still managed to nip into town. I bought a couple of kitchen appliances..

1) Kenwood White Compact Food Processor

Its a genius invention. Well, it serves as a chopper and a blender and a mixer.Tak payah hiris2 bawang dah:) Apparently I can also use it to make baby food. Another brownie point. Bought it for 27.99 GBP. Its not as robust, but It'll do for me :)

Chopping blade. slicing disc. shredding disc. whisk attachment. citrus press. fruit/vegatable juicer. 400 watts power,1.4 litres bowl capacity,1 Litre liquidiser capacity

2)George Foreman Family Grill

ting hinge so you can cook extra thick food.
- - hihi..I have this idea of berpantang makan grilled chicken...healthy kan..takde minyak maaaa..Plus..boley buat satay..woot woot. nanti balik aysia nak masak utk cik abang..no more cik ajinomoto!!!!
    
    hihi..I have this idea of berpantang makan grilled chicken...healthy kan..takde minyak maaaa..Plus..boley buat satay..woot woot. nanti balik Malaysia nak masak utk cik abang..no more cik ajinomoto!!!!
    
    Oh yaa...I bought it for 25 GBP.Original price 70 GBP.alhamdullilah :)
    
    P.s: I'm itching to buy a stroller. Camne ni..mengandung pon tak lagi :P
    
    Oh yaa...I bought it for 25 GBP.Original price 70 GBP.alhamdullilah :)

Give details of outstanding achievements outside the field of medicine

2010-12-18T03:53:00.000-08:00

In June 2010, I got married in Malaysia. However, my partner still resides in Malaysia due to work circumstances. Maintaining a long-distance relationship is challenging, However my partner and I overcome this by having a positive attitude which drives us to work harder. I believe that this makes me a strong-willed individual.

Having had a busy medical rotation in the midst of the wedding preparations, it was difficult to organise it from a long distance. However due to my efficient organisational and multitasking skills, I was able to successfully arrange it by using online resources.

yet again

2010-11-23T11:30:00.000-08:00

We are about to make a great mistake by recruiting foreign doctors to work as medical officers.

We have capable doctors in private hospitals. Money comes second but what they really want

is a normal live. Imagine yourself working 36 hours without sleep. No human brain can

function under the circumstances. Doctors also need to have life outside medicine. They

want to be with close families hence the decision to leave gov hosp. FY1 In UK, senior

doctors are entitled to 6 hours protected sleep.

One of the reasons I decided to stay in UK. I would fly straight home if they abolish this silly

system.

Call me ungrateful git. It doesnt bother me to the slightest.

To all doctors in Malaysia, hang in there!!!

Ugly duckling

2010-11-21T15:13:00.000-08:00

Can't remember the last time I felt beautiful??!!

Maybe its time for another Syomir Izwa's. Need to shed off those extra pounds first. *Cough.

I absolutely love his chic collections.

The above dress may not be to everyone s liking but I absolutely love it.

Weekend Blog marathon. I shall be dormant for the next few days *pulling duvet

Patience paid off, insyaAllah

2010-11-21T11:38:00.000-08:00

I came across this quote on facebook.

''A career is great but you can't curl up with it at night''

Ouch..truth hurts ey???

It wasnt meant for me but it hurts all the same.

I get sarcastic remarks every now and again. I tend to brush it off by telling myself

''biarlah ape orang nak kata''

I'd like to get even and shout '' BACK OFF'' but instead I hold back my tears and tell

myself ''why bother?''

I know my happiness is miles away. I also know what I am doing.

Alhamdullilah. My other half has received an informal offer to work OS. Its not official yet though.

I keep telling myself. Long distance is only for tough and resilient people. Ceh ceh nak sedapkan hati.

InsyaAllah, may Allah protects and guide us all xxx

The places I've been

2010-11-20T14:39:00.000-08:00

Barcelona, Spain

Switzerland

Ireland

Morrocco

Istanbul

Milan

Venice

Monaco

Australia

New Zealand

I am going to Spain with my family next May. yeay! I feel privilleged to take them around...My parents really enjoyed their stay in Istanbul and New Zealand last time. They were my travel mates since I wasnt allowed to travel with bf then..Hihi..

Alhamdullilah He has given me this oppurtunity to travel the world. It costs me a fortune but trust me, unless uve travelled before u wouldnt know how wonderful going travelling is..hihi..

Congratulations mate!

2010-11-20T14:02:00.000-08:00

I'd like to wish my ex-roomie, Heed, a big congratulation! I've been busy checking ur profile for new photos but nothings up so far. :(. I hope ur enjoying every seconds of it..its easy to get stressed even with petty things but the big thing is ur now a ''puan''. Everybody is praying that this marriage is going to last a lifetime, blessed with anak soleh solehah :)

You will look absolutely angelic and demure, as always!

Just remember all the barakah that will come with it..BESTNYE! Congratulations Heed

Random

2010-11-20T12:15:00.000-08:00

That was me last year. I cant believe I cant fit in my size 8 nightwear. I bought dozens of them but only managed to use 3 of them. I got another new pair last week given by fifi n farah. I blame the weather. Honey come quick. I need a human to cuddle not some silly teddy bears uncapable of transferring heat to my body....grrrrrr.

In dire of makeover

2010-11-10T11:27:00.000-08:00

I feel tired and run down. I look like a 30 year old lady when I am still in my 20 s.My life revolves around the rota. I may have the money(sikit je) but I aint got the time. I think I need to hire a professional stylist. Haha.Kidding.Looking forward to go to Leicester this weekend. I am on nights again this week. I need to put my feet up and relax. Tahirah if ur reading this, I have to agree with u.Our nature of jobs make us feel less attractive. Maybe, maybe when we become a consultant iA I get to use my choos. Haha

Busy night

2010-11-01T03:41:00.000-07:00

Was reading through my previous entry..too many grammar errors..screw it! who cares if I write broken English

As expected, yesterday night was beyond horror. I only had to sit down for 10 mins. That was when I broke down. I needed to really. And alhamdullilah I felt a lot better. The seniors probably noticed I had teary eyes but little did they know I was crying my lungs out, alone in a dark room.

I was about to do a knee aspiration under supervision until I got a trauma call at 0010. It was a 20 year old junkie found lying in middle of the road with reduced consciousness. I wasnt really excited about it until I found out he has a broken neck. FY1, if you do have a neck fracture, there is a chance that you will end up paralyzed.

So I woke my reg up at 0300 after doing a full neurological examination. We had the Urgent Imaging (CT scan) done at around 0400. At about 0400 I was asked to a blood gas which was a challenge because pt wasnt very co-operative. He kept saying the F* word everytime I touched his wrist. I stabbed him 3 times. It was the most awkward position to do a gas. I left feeling frustrated.

The medical registrar noticed that I was upset. He kept saying encouraging words'' you are doing very well''. Eventually, I managed to get a blood gas from his groin. It is most probably the most unpleasant blood test but it had to be done.

He then told me that the patient whom I saw last time had a confirmed Gullein Barre syndrome. It was an inappropriate referral from A & E.rare neurological problem but I diagnosed it right. He said he is happy to sign me off.

That made my day a bit. Once a medic always a medic. :).

Happy Halloween peeps!

2010-10-31T12:04:00.000-07:00

Currently doing nights. the last few nights been quiet alhamdullilah..am expecting tonight gonna be horror with drunken and injured lads. They didnt drink last night I bet they are planning to get wasted today instead.

On another note, I have loads of things on my mind. I'd like to learn how to sew, I have to make sure my driving and swimming skill are up to scratch. Mind u I havent driven for 6 years.

Not to mention, I wanna learn Arabic. Sigh

Too many things on plate on the mo. I'm just utterly grateful that I have found a truly understanding lad who is not only caring but support me all the way, be it my career or my passion on certain things.

Here s are the things I have achieved:

Cooking skill

MRCP Part 1

Baking skill

Loads and loads of travelling- Morroco, New Zealand, Australia, France, Switzerland, Brussels, Luxembourg, France, Italy, Greece, Vienna, Prague, Spain, Thailand

Getting hitched

It was such a great experience.

Just to add to the list, I need to acquire how to be a ''super attractive seductive wife''! LOL

Taaaa...

Salams

2010-10-23T16:39:00.000-07:00

I have a lot of wishes still. I have plenty of deadlines to meet. Lets see whether I get this time right.

I am a true believer of usaha + doa + tawakal. Its cliche but its works for me. I dont see why it cant work for u.

My aim is to have a baby before I reach 30. My goal is to finish Part II MRCP in May. I wish to go to Mekah next year. I'd like to go for Haj but i'd be equally happy if I can go for Umrah. Some people say u have to be ready to go for Haj. I heard stories that people actually turn worse after Haj. Nauzubillah. I don't wish that to anyone. Personally I think we can afford to go for Haj so I consider it a sin if I dont go considering I've been to many places. This one should be on top of my list.

People get excited about having babies. Call me greedy but I want both career and family. People get scared about getting pregnant but I'm more scared about raising a child. And going through labour- who doesnt??I believe the firstyear of a child's life is very crucial. Breastfeeding is part of it but more importantly thats when their organs starts growing esp the brain. I wouldnt hesitate to take unpaid leave just to make sure my baby flourish well.

I was considering to get pregnant on my own in England. I'm no superwoman but I'd like to stand on my own feet and take control of my own life. Little did I realise that I was being selfish. It wouldnt be mine, it wil be ours. He has every rights to watch the fetus slowly growing inside my tummy. He wants to soothe his/her ears with ayat al-quran. He wants to do babyclothes shopping with me. And I'll let him do just that.

For now, I'm hoping and praying that I ,we will never look back and regret on decisions we make. Afterall, passport ke syurga I kan kat dia :P

My week off

2010-10-21T03:27:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I actually manged put aside my summer clothes..its time for winter wardrobe. 2 days ago, I watched ''how to lose a guy in 10 days'' -All time favourite. Hmm..I also went to Leicester and did some shopping.

Am going to London on my own tommorow. How depressing!

Well, in fairness, I spent most of my time in bed- surfing. There was a 2 storey house in TTDI which is going on auction. Great location. The other half doesnt really fond of the idea. He prefers brand new house. I cant really blame him. It probably cost us as much to renovate the house.

Still on property matter, I found another property in Ukay Perdana. It is near to my sister's. My sister just moved in to Serenia Garden. I wasn't really keen on it since it has only 84 years leasehold left. Talam (the developer) abandoned the project for quite a while. But Riana Ukay is slightly different. It still has 95 years of leasehold. Its the same area where landslide happen every now and again but its not hilly, its built on a flat ground. Now thats tempting!

I've been doing lots and lots of thinking. Hmmm..maybe we shouldnt rush. Maybe we should get a landed property once I know where I'll be working. You see, the property price is getting more and more expansive by the day. But on the bright side, its reassuring to know that some of the new houses have really good quality furnishing. Till then take care xxx

Blessings

2010-10-19T15:34:00.000-07:00

They say marriage is about compromise. I couldn't agree more. Orang melayu kata sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit. I say, no one should know what happen behind those closed doors.

You see, my case is a complete different ball game. We're married but we dont share a bed. we are in love but separated miles away. hence, I get remarks from all folks. Mostly uninviting.

We got married after mutual istiqarah. Say what you want people. I put my trust in Him not in you. And so Allah, if ur listening, Guide me through. Show me the light. you guided me many times. I hope I'm not asking u too much xxx

Alhamdullilah..

2010-10-15T13:54:00.001-07:00

I passed! Besarnye nikmat Allah.

Wedding of the year

2010-10-10T08:34:00.000-07:00

Salam,

The reason why they become the topic of my entry is because the bride's sister is a friend of ours. She was the pengapit

of the day. I think everyone will agree that these ladies are blessed with beautiful stunning faces.

I knew Miza back in MRSM days. She is quirky and happy-go-lucky. I think it runs in the family. You can see from the photos her sister just cant take her smile off her face. MasyaAllah some people are just so lucky, aren't they?

Miza currently works as a doctor in Dublin.Lawa giler.pengsan.

There are some unpleasant remarks about the astronaut- space tourist etc. Some say its a waste of money. In his defence, I think its unfair to criticize him when it was the government who actually created the opportunities for him to shine.

Its true that they say the grass always looks greener on the other side. I was watching the live broadcast and it striked me that shes one lucky girl indeed. *envy with green*

On another note isteri2 mithali,

A reminder to all of us

Sabda Rasul SAW "If the women prays her five (Salah), fasts her month (of Ramadan), protects herself (from committing Zina "adultery"), and obeys her husband, it will be said to her, from any door you wish, enter Paradise!"

Cold personality

2010-10-02T15:02:00.000-07:00

I have grown so much since my teenage years. I used to be a cold person, well I cant really blame the genes or the upbringing. I am who I am and certainly not proud of who I was.

Some people grow out of their young traits. They say u tend to mellow as you grow older. I hope what they say is true.

When I get upset, I tend to keep quiet. But my emotions inevitably show all over my face. Its hard to put a smile on my face when things go sour.

For some reasons, I think I tend to lose my temper in KL than in UK. Road rage, mat rempit, rude and vulgar words u name it. I'm considering to live outside KL in the future for that reason.

I worry for my future. I'm losing all the drive and the motivation. Could my other half be the reason? For whats its worth, I have never regretted being in this profession.

The question is, when will I be ready to come home? Results will be out in 2 weeks. Make dua insyaAllah xxx

Well, if Gaya Apartment siap cepat maybe I'll come back for good sooner than I intend.

Death

2010-09-24T15:39:00.000-07:00

I do encounter dying people day in day out. People might argue that since I've been a doctor for 1 year and 2 month, dealing with a dying patient shouldn't be an issue. Its been over a bloody year and it still gets to me.

In United Kingdom every single documentation is confidential. Everything you write is medico-legal. It is not uncommon to hear doctors in this country to go to court for medico-legal issues. I have always been warned. ''Document every single word. Make sure I know who I talk to on the phone. Their post and their bleep number''.

I saw a patient yesterday who had end stage organ failure and she died yesterday after an eventful operation. The operation might contribute towards her death but it was her end stage breathing problem that killed her. Every doctors would possible agree that this patient would not survive anyway. Her prognosis was bleak but the surgeons had to operate on her because if they don't she will still die anyway.

I always feel bad after patients die.Its sad. I suppose its natural.

It wasnt the patient that get to me that much this time. It was another collegue of ours who always been intimidating to me. He is only 1 year senior to me but he acts like he knows everything. He always point fingers to others. Just because he wants to be a surgeon and I dont want to become a surgeon doesnt give him the right to look down on other people.

I know sometimes I look like an idiot. Ortho is not my cup of tea. Its a complete alien to me.

He made me wanted to quit once. I wont let him do this twice.

Sometimes you feel u've done your best but people keep critizing you, Whatever it is, I have documented my bits. Legally speaking I'm covered. He can say what he wants.

For the time being, I will brush up my knowledge on ortho despite my ''kebencian'' towards ortho.

PS: I really hope I'll pass MRCP Part 1.Ameen.